MIRACLE MAN :)

the point marked X

2010-06-02T16:53:00.000+08:00

The point marked X The 'treasure' you have been looking for.

when i turn around and saw it, my left side of brain will like 'omg why like that... why dun wan try...' then my right side of my brain will like 'ok chill chill. its other people not me'

when i looked in another direction, i will 'why u seem like a stranger to me', and suddenly i blinked and said 'oh you are your usual self' and i blinked again and 'are we from different worlds? why cant we get along', and for a moment, i felt my heart thumping like crazy.
4 different reactions, but its just the same thing.

then i turned again. cold war for a second, buddies for the next second.
This also applies to the 2nd one.

I looked over.
For a moment, i felt, wow so fun to be together. the next i felt, i didnt want to get along at all.

I looked behind. Way way behind.
why were the best buddies in the world, and when i took a step forward, it seems like your memory of us were like gone in your brain. why we suddenly became competitive and stubborn, and CHILDISH?

ok one is getting more obvious than the previous.

today me rashid liting genghao were talking in mac.
they had their own stories. i felt that every story really had a moral to learn from.
i spoke nothing. Why? Because, i didnt experience i single damn setback.
This is the reason why i stayed so immature. And the more i think im mature, the more im not.
Actually, there were so many things happening in the past. but i did not recall them.
when im supposed to feel angry about a certain thing, im not.
That doesn't mean i am optimistic or sth, its because i couldn't care less about whats happening.
there are many embarrassing things happening too.
but i choose to forget these embarrassing thoughts when they came into my mind.
cuz? its embarrassing.
but shouldn't i think that they are sth to learn from?
for example, i had a privelege of being a CCA leader.
but what did i gain from it? nothing meaningful. just hatred, and strong competition, and bootlicking, and all the stupid thoughts.
that is why i didnt grow up. mentally. it may even affect my physical maturity too. so you see me, like that.

and i just cleared things out with my parents over me being an introvert. am i made a mistake.
i always thought that being an introvert means you are quiet, dun like to talk and make friends, bla bla.

but im wrong, after what mr victor ong had said.
im like what he said, i choose not to confide in people about my problems. my REAL problems.
and WORSE OF ALL, i DONT even know what my real problems are.
im serious.
i choose to keep everything inside of me.
For the friday MBTI thingy, im waiting for it. To see whether i am in or ex.
Or is there even this segment about this?

Also, i admre those 'courageous enough to do that' people.
Well,i admire them.
But why didnt i learn from them?
whats the point of standing there and looking at those success of other people, and just doing nothing.
but i think its the right thing to do.
or maybe im a coward.

why those songs which were supposed to be happy are emo to me?
it actually depends on the time when i 1st hear the song.
and when these songs are emo, i know sth's wrong.
the time when i heard the song was the time when im sad, im down, wadeva.

so its like, theres so many emo songs to me.
that means im not a happy person.
due to my brain. due to my thoughts mentioned at the start. due to my 'forget about it' feeling. due to my childish-ness. due to my cowardness. due to my irresponsibility.

i want to live a life with no regrets, be brave, be happy.
most importantly, i want a normal life.
i dun wan to be abnormal.

Come on Christon! Come on!

Cant Stay Away

2010-03-21T12:10:00.000+08:00

Cant Stay Away - Kris Allen

This song super nice! :) Sounds like a Daughtry type of song...

Holidays ended today... :(

And i havent even touched 3/4 of my homework! Screwed.

English article, Chinese compo, A maths worksheet(left half), E maths paper (left 3/4), Physics worksheet(left 3/4), Chemistry ?? (dun even noe what is the homework), Biology?? (dunno oso)
Combined Humanities should have no homework... i think. For SS read the textbook only, which i wont read -.-

Tuition ytd i spent the whole time trying to prevent my mucus from flowing out. And i 4got bring tissue -.-When teacher went out, i secretly go out to take tissue -.- Then i take one piece still not enough. Then have to control.
Stressful tuition. Like learn aot of extra things that seem impt to the tuition teacher. But i like the way she teach how to tackle compre qns.

Church. like Pastor Tan's message. And his sermons always finish on time :)

Fellowship with Tina's cell... So now both our cell very bonded? Which i dunno when that happened. And we even might have cell tgt.

Went home at 11pm ytd, and my bro accused me of saying more vulgar since i went church. Like wth?! You speak a hundred times more than me pls.

Tonight man utd vs LIVERPOOL! I want to watch! Maybe trying web streaming.

It didnt rain on Wednesday morning, and rained throughout the whole week -.- SIAN.

Bye. Have to chiong homework alr. Someone give me a Chinese compo hot topic? Cant think of one.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

the end?

2010-01-10T21:31:00.001+08:00

the end?

im changing my blog.

Find my blog address in this paragraph:

'I'n changong my blog addqess. You cin try to unkode it. Iosers. Losirs. Xee if you kan figure it qut. Ny insqiration as from A Series Of Unfortunate Events. That's alk i con fell you. Lnteresting? I like sherlick holmes right omot? LOL. Thix is lame.'

LOL. Only smart people know. Bye. ^^

LOL

2010-01-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

LOL

Instead of revising for tests, i chose to act like some computer geek and created a photo using photoshop.

It's rather successful, i think. My blog photo :)

Wow. This is a good way of venting my anger. Not really venting, but like doing it to make myself happy.

But my photoshop is a 30 day trial :(

I dunno how do all those cropping and crap, so still got the background of the photos.

'Liverpool - Gerrard - Torres' collage :)

I dunno why i feel scared when im doing this. Is either i expect too much of myself, or i scared that later the blogskinner say copyright or sth.

Bye.

Oops

2010-01-10T13:44:00.000+08:00

Oops

I always forgot what i want to blog...

Sezairi got 61% votes while Sylvia got 39% votes?! You gotta be joking seriously!

Now Sezairi is like a forgotten man. Hehe.
Actually, Singapore Idol is a forgotten contest.

Ytd, church. pastor Tan about visions. I need visions.......
Dunno why ytd i cant concentrate in church. Like im thinking about other stuff.

Yiren bought some headphone in Eastphone which sucked. Partly my fault. Gonna change it.

Happy Birthday Rashid! If i cant blog tml...

Sorry for not having an outing today. Cuz like dunno what activities to do.

Bye.

We used to breathe without a doubt...

2010-01-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

We used to breathe without a doubt...

Sec 4 life is really stupid, ruining people's happy childhood.

Tml O'lvl Chinese results, not expecting too much.

I dun wan to get ulcer before going to the dentist!

Just found out the meaning of the 'Creation of Adam' picture by Michelangelo. Got alot of meanings. Very nice.

Birmingham 1 Man Utd 1!!! WOO
Arsenal 2 Everton 2 -.-

Dunno why, i still got a feeling that Liverpool can still win the Premier League.

Didnt noe a blog kept private led to so many people reading it.

Boring, as usual. SS test coming up. Read textbook enough la.

That's all. Boring right.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Weird...

2010-01-09T16:03:00.000+08:00

Weird...

Im supposed to be scared for my O'lvl results on Mon. Instead, im worrying about other things. Like test on tues, then i got dentist at 4, scared i cannot make it after the results, and also the china trip presentation.

Who cares about results? XD Positive thinking? Or neglect?

I hate my body. I cant take long strides. I cant be fast. Stamina is not a factor alr. :(

joke

2010-01-09T15:40:00.000+08:00

A: 你尽管叫吧，叫破喉咙也没有人会救你的!

B: 破喉咙！破喉咙！

Stone for 5 secs... -_-

A: 他是不会来的！哈哈哈。。。

B: 啊。。。

Get the joke? From 海派甜心 one. LOL!

ICE AGE

2010-01-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

ICE AGE

So many matches postponed due to snow. Liverpool v Tottenham postponed too...

Got back scholarship money. Im sitting at the same row with Mr Raymond Lim, the Minister bla bla. So hot! Even with the fans. And all the grassroots people all old old one. And somemore the emcee is some old women. Say out the names like going to fall asleep like that. So sian.

But then, i got $650!
$_$ Ka-ching! ^^

Church later. Told you school days nothing to blog one. Bye.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

the end of the start

2010-01-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

the end of the start

the start of the end? This refers to the world. It only can be one of them. Im hoping for the post title one. Judgement day will prove everything.

At guitar today, learned slur waltz and waltz. LOL like 5-6 lines per song. Quite easy. and nice.
But i wan still wan teacher to let us learn modern songs LOL.

Too bad guitar exam coming. Next week learning exam song alr. Its so hard alr, i cant catch up!

But maybe guitar is something im looking forward every week, cuz its the end of school week!

<3 chewbacca. So cute. But its rather lame. Some extra character. RAWR.

Baby rara. Lady gaga.

Hi My Sweetheart! WTH. It really seem like eternity to wait for one week of school. Pink panther! Dalung, dalung, yeayea -.-
Seconds seem like hours in school; hours seem like seconds in the holidays.
Seconds, hours, so many days... Where are the weeks? Im having a bad one =.=

I wan 羅生門 album!

One of my dreams is coming true! Just waiting for the big day...

Oops. DIE. I want someone to stop seeing my blog! But i dun wan to change blog address! Unless i come up with a nicer one than this. AAA

In a blink of an eye, Monday is gonna come. The torture repeats. Must change my attitude on this. :(

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

It's gonna be over!!!

2010-01-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be over!!!

Im talking about the week -.- Not the exams. Definitely not the year. So its not really worth celebrating for -.- But still, T.G.I.F.

Bio test. Hard. CCA. Go tehre half an hour finish alr. Yay.

Guitar alr! Shit im late. bye.

IT TOOK FOREVER

2010-01-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

IT TOOK FOREVER.

I seem to be waiting for Hi My Sweetheart latest episode. School can be forever!!! Next episode super nice leh. WTH! Im like waiting for a 'year' for the episode alr... This shows how long one week of school can be.

I've been in school for more than 12 hours before... This sux.
I have an average of 10 hours of school this week.

CCA display today. The sec 1s have gold in their mouth. Cant seem to give a simple reply such as yes or no. Irritating.
Sort of did my job for today. Still think i dun deserve it. He's much better. Im being selfish. But what can i do?!

A piece of crap in my braces broke off while eating a nougat. 2nd time alr. The dentist hates that.
Pls, no ulcer before dentist appointment! Think one is forming.

I dun wan torture. I dun wan school. Im still not working hard for my Bio test.

So many tests coming up, and i dun have the heart to study. Let alone CCA. All the E A Maths, SS, Chem, Bio... aiya wait until i fail then i wake up la.

It's always tough at first. But is it this tough?

Im not asking too much. I just want to have a simple life.
SIAN. Thought of school the next day makes me hate waking up in the morning. I can even wake up in the holidays at 7.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

2010-01-06T19:27:00.002+08:00

After Monday and Tuesday (M and T) its actually W T F after that! Wednesday Thursday Friday!

No wonder today sux -.-

2010-01-06T19:25:00.000+08:00

i want to start reading the bible!

it can surely make me a better person, and also teach me how to tackle millions of problems one at a time.

i love Jesus. !!!

Spare me

2010-01-06T19:10:00.000+08:00

Spare me

Now it's not about not enough time doing homework, not enough motivation to do homework. It's not about homework.

If something is not going to change, im on the verge of breaking down.
I've long been waiting for miracles, and i've waited long enough.

Persipiration have long evaporated, tears have long dried, blood has long shed.

I need miracles to give me self-belief, give me confidence, give me strength, give me courage. I dun want to go through what i've gone through ever again.

If this week's bad enough, what about the other weeks to come?

Satan, in the mighty name of Jesus, i command you to shingz off from my life. You hecking idiot.

I dun deserve to be the captain of wushu anymore. What's the point of me being captain of a CCA that i dislike? I should have long given the post to him. It's not even for me. Since the role is given to me, i shall do my best. But i didnt. The unenthu ness in me is too much.
Im not a vocal person. I dun lead my juniors by example. Im not enthu about wushu. I suck at being initiative.

I dun even want to be captain anymore. I just dun want people to look down on me or wadever if i really give up.
Im giving myself chances. There are plenty of chances left. Starting with tomorrow.
I dun wan to give up just like that.

What an interesting life God has given me.

WORST WEEK EVER.

2010-01-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

WORST WEEK EVER.

The most tiring, busy, crazy, chaotic, disappointing, frustrating week ever in school.

Luckily, yesterday was not in this worst week. Or else it would be the worst case scenario.

OK firstly, the good news. Im gonna subscribe Singtel Mio TV!!! On 12 jan, the Singtel person will come to my house to set up the box.

But yesterday, there were some problems about the wire thing, which was totally unnecessary.
About the wiring. Cuz if the box put at the telephone there, then the wire have to join the TV in a U shape. S discuss this discuss that, then my bro say, 'so mafan, then dun subscribe la stupid'. He dun wan, thats his problem. Got soccer matches, u dun watch. Bye bye. Go die.

Today, maybe the worst day in the week. Luckily i've survived it.

Reading Education. boring.

Bio, boring. Hannah wanted to check the TYS, but lied to her that i didnt bring. No integrity. But she did assume that i didnt do. So can la. Big homework number 1. Bio tys.

Then Chinese. BORING. Teacher dint (means didnt. that will be my didnt from now on.) come, so have to read a passage and do a book review. 1hr30min. -.- 45 mins done alr. Ate Oreo. Thanks Yiren.

Recess, boring? no. But still suck. I got sick of the food alr. The long queue make dun wan to buy even more.

A Maths. BORING... Consultation. Didnt ask anything. Was struggling whether to do A Maths TYS or Bio TYS or none. Mrs Wee said need to hand up A Maths TYS. But she wun mark. Only see see. WTH. A super slacking job. Bog homework number 2. AM tys.

Physics. Not boring actually. New chapter on waves. Understood a little. Ok so what? Fine fine BORING. Didnt buy physics workbook oso.

English. BORING. Some stuff about Reading. Kristine Torres here Torres there. And i hate READING. Football Club. -.- I like reading. I dun like Reading with R as capital letter only if the reading which i like and not the one that i dun like begins at the start at the sentence so the r will be capital letter but that is the reading that i like not the Reading Football Club, that Reading which is the football club that Reading is the capital R is used regardless at the start of the sentence or not, so is different from the reading books that reading which is not a name so the R does not always must be capital letter and only if the word reading is at the start of the sentence :)
Dun get it right. Only smart people+me get it. Im not smart.

Then must bring files and exercise book next lesson. BORING. Wa im tired from writing those confusing stuff.

Go 201 eat lunch. Lose to Jasper in a BBT challenge :( Im a slow drinker.

Then, THEN THEN THEN THEN. U know the scary song that always appear in shows.
Its the NUS training. 'THE NUS TRAINING.' My title for my horror show.

NO la actually not that bad or wad but its quite fun and engaging. But the training wiped me out. I pulled my hamstring. AGAIN. sian man. I am bursting with energy and my colour should put me in a changing trend. Something like that la. From the Silkygirl advert. All my energy burst out liao la. DIE LA.

Dun like some people that went with me to NUS. Apart Wini, she is another issue. -.- Oops. LOL.
My junior belittle people who have a lower standard in wushu than him. And i think he is going to be the next captain. Dam worrying man. And honestly, sorry for my judgement, he is not matured.
Hope he will change this year.

Went home, about 8.30pm. WTH. Nvm i got later be4. 11pm. Last year.
But its bad considered my 2 Big homeworks and also Bo test on Fri.

Wanted to relax and watch TV. CANT. IM SO TIRED AND I CANT WATCH TV AND I PLANNING TO WATCH FINISH TV THEN DO TYS. CANT WATCH TV. WHY.

First Class, Home Decor Survivor, Simpsons. WHY.

Gave up on TYS today. I guess i will have alot of giving up to do for the next few days. It will be totally gone case if E Maths TYS need hand up.

Worst week - What's left?
Wed - CCA training. NUS training so tiring and next day my muscle aching @#$%#$%$@
Thurs - CCA display. School end at 4 and i finish at 6.30pm. sec1s @#%%$#
Fri - Bio test and CCA training. @#%$$%#$@

Luckily God is my councillor, or else i have to go to Mrs Sundrum.

~I'll Try Not To Walk Alone. You guys too.~

1st day...

2010-01-04T18:52:00.000+08:00

1st day...

of school. Boring, as usual. Already started on a new A Maths chapter.

Thanks Kristine for lending me the Gerrard and Torres book! Although the Gerrard one now belongs to Huiyen.
I didnt pay for it! So bad.
Thanks alot.

I started school with the worst possible start -- i was late for 10mins. Mrs Sundrum and the new DM Mr Ong was like looking at the latecomers and speaking a few stuff. I must not be late already!

While in contrast, school ended early today. It should have been earlier cuz there was no assembly. We played some stupid stuff which requires the squinting of eyes and concentration.
It might be the earliest release for the week, including CCAs.

From tomorrow all the way to Friday, i will have CCA. ARGHH.
Tues - NUS stuff
Wed - CCA training
Thurs - CCA display for sec1 students
Fri - CCA training

These should be my desserts for not attending CCA for the whole of the holidays. But cant help it wad. -.-

Today received some academic achievement award, and Wushu got 2nd. We actually got 1st last year. -.- Aiyo last year badge ar...
But i think this year badge will be much better LOL. Got me ma. LOL jkjk. But becuz got 3 3r1 ppl. Still got me leh -.-

Watched the latest episode of Hi My Sweetheart today. Getting nicer. Which means sadder.
I really hope i will not get too much into it. The consequences very cham one.
Very nice! I hope i can chiong finish. AAA

I must not be late for school again.
I must try to enjoy school lessons.
I must try to live my life to the fullest.

~His armband proved he was a red.~
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

The Gerrard book got the bleed Liverpool red verse meh? Where got? Dun tell me i skipped a page? AAA

WHAT?!

2010-01-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

WHAT?!

I got a very bad bad bad feeling.

1. I got Ms Chen's sms nong nong ago to bring my reflection on mon.
I lost it at the starting of december. I just realised its important. Have to redo. 300 words?!

2. Im presentation in charge for the China trip, that means got powerpoint rite?
Im really lost. I dunno what to do. Teacher oso never say need do anything. If need by next week how?!

3. Got a few people got their scholarship awards today. Some got $400, some got $650. Which one am I?!
I last 2 years got the same letter stating the same thing, and both i got $500. Why so different?!
Why i get on next sat while they get today?!

Chui chui chui Blow blow blow

Rama ra ma ma ah Bad school

Teacher, i tml got holiday so cannot go school.

ARGH!!! AAAAAAAA

anek desserts! ytiexna redrosid! xaleR xaler.

wheP. Phew.

End-of-holidays disorder.

KONICHAWADESTU.

Preparation...

2010-01-03T14:23:00.000+08:00

Preparation...

Tomorrow got new episodes of idol dramas!!! Tomorrow will be the best day! XD ...am i missing out something important tml?...

Liverpool drew with Reading! @#$%#
Hate zonal markings...

And i remember the exact time i slept! So cool rite? 1.53am. WOO

Cuz after seeing Kristine's sms at 1.52am, i fell asleep. -.-

I grew taller!!!

No need to fold my school pants alr!
But my pants so fat. People will think i have fat legs.

Why am i toking about school. Holidays wad -_- Holidays next week rite? RITE?!

i think im 157cm. I use measuring tape -.- Super inaccurate.

Tml sux. I finally admitted it. Bye.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Twenty Ten...

2010-01-02T12:06:00.000+08:00

Twenty Ten...

The last year at Ngee Ann! XD
The year of the O'levels...

The most depressing year so far in my life.

On the new year countdown slept at 3.30am, woke up at 12pm. WA 1st time...

Love early mornings.... but it depends if i like late nights more.

The channel 8 countdown they sang 敗犬女王... Suddenly like the song. WOW fan ti zi -.-

Basically, the countdown is rather boring. Channel 5 and Channel 8, then Channel U is Rain Fashion Concert.

Countdown already oso nothing special...
Hate new years.

School again.

1st week. CCA-related from Tues to Fri. The torture begins.

Thanksgiving dinner yesterday... Cool.

There are lesser and lesser things to blog now.

When school reopens, my common line will be...

"Today school... Boring as usual."

Bla bla. Holidays ended. Bye.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

LAST DAY.

2009-12-31T13:27:00.004+08:00

LAST DAY.

of freedom. Tml is the New Year. yay. yay.

But maybe, maybe for once, i anticipate school. cuz i've been so bad and irresponsible during the holidays.
Lesson learnt: Even if u dun wan to drink water, check if still got water. If dun have, BOIL.

Got scolded today. My fault actually. Then feel so guilty of using the com.

Arsenal won! They rock! Liverpool rock more!
RAMSEY!

Like their style of play. Liverpool should learn from them. Benitez should learn from Wenger. In terms of buying the right players.

The o lvl chinese results are getting closer. And i CONFIRM. Got a B.

I knew it from the time when there is intensive lessons during EP. I only practiced alot for my weakness, which is 选词填空, and i neglected my (oso not very good but better than the rest) 'strength', which is comprehension.

For the o lvl's, the compre all thinking qn ones, and i flop. Then my weakness got 7/10, which improved la.

I dun expect a miracle to get an A. I dun deserve it. Yiren deserves it. Alot more than me,

Anyway, want to thank him for his encouragement. Although i prefer to just 静一静 and figure it out myself.

Long distance running rox!

Although u will get muscle aches the next day, or ur legs will just suddenly give away and bend while walking (SCREW THEM), it's very good for you mentally.

When running, you can think of alot of things, and maybe by the time u finish running 4km or sth, u alr got ur mind straight.

My running track is shaped like a curvy snake circling around the Bedok reservoir. You can see the opposite of it, which is the Waterworks, and it is very far from my house to there. 2.5km.

But once u start running longer and longer, u will have the kind of satisfaction that u have reached the opposite although its so far, and that pushed you to run to the other opposite, which is the starting line.

I love this kind of mentality, that's why no matter how tired i am when i reached 2.5km, i will have the same amount of energy to run back to the starting line.

Actually, life is just like Bedok Reservoir park.

You know the goal is very far from you, but so long as you start going on the path to the goal, step by step, nothing is impossible. That's why i love the song 'One Step At A Time' and 'Nothing Is Impossible'. LOL

I want to have this mentality throughout my whole life, so that i can accomplish greater things, work for better miracles, pursue impossible dreams.

~We'll Never Walk Alone.~

LIFE CHANGING

2009-12-30T22:19:00.005+08:00

LIFE CHANGING

I want something to change my life...
Some life changing encounter... that will be cool

Went to watch Sherlock Holmes with Genghao, Kristine and Cynthia.
The movie very mysterious, secretive... abit scary at some parts like the Blackwood's 'black magic'.

Blackwood is my idol!!!
Btw, the scary parts are like some HORROR movie. :O

Singapore Idol should just be on Suria... PWNed XD

Heok Heok Heok...

Touched by an Angel belly nice. Very nice. Although sylvia sang better.

HEOK HEOK HEOK.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

~This is Anfield.~

~Steven Gerrard 8 rocks!~

Back again?!

2009-12-28T16:48:00.002+08:00

Back again?!

You're blogging again?! Why are u so irritating Christon?! Stop means stop la. OMG. You are super irritating Christon i swear.

But im not blogging as much as before now. And i hope *crossing fingers* that nobody sees this blog ever again. Maybe its just for myself to write all my feelings inside.

Or maybe, its a Note To God. LOL Charice -.-

Its MY note to God. COoOoOol.

Post-It-Note: I NEED A MIRACLE

Dear God,

I know i have been a bad boy this holidays. Not doing my homework. Having thoughts of giving up studies. Always using the computer. Doing stupid sins that only stupid people do. God, only u know what i've done, rite?

I know You have forgiven me alr. Long before i sinned. But to me, its not enough. How can i ask from you something when i've done so many wrong things?

Im not a really on-fire person in church. I hardly read the bible, honestly. And im that kind of stone-hearted person. I dun get emotional when i worship You. Well, maybe sometimes. I even sometimes take for granted that You have alr forgiven me. So i keep sinning and sinning.

How can i ask for something now? I want to grow. I really want to grow. I do not want to wait until im 18, before i reach puberty. Even sometimes when i look at myself in the mirror, i dun think this is me.

Everyone says im cute, im innocent, pure. But they are all looking at the outside of me.

Im a totally different person, honestly speaking. And this body of mine, doesn't seem to fit my personality, my thoughts, my feelings.

Can i just be myself? Can You change my body for me?

Miracles will come. Miracles do come. But when? To me, now its the best time for miracles.

I've got this kind of feelings, like if You do this for me, i will even be more on-fire for You.

And i hate this. I know that i have to 1st be on-fire for You, then You will do this for me.

I just sort of cant. I cant do it. I dunno why. But im trying a little harder.

You sort of gave me smaller miracles last time, which made me want to improve my relationship with You.

Ok i dunno wad im toking rite now, so im stopping here.

I just hope i can do more things for You, but i cant even let other people to be saved. I cant even preach to ppl. I cant even invite people to come to church.

So who am I to ask from You to do things for me?

Signing off here.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Sweetheart x8

2009-12-21T19:31:00.002+08:00

Sweetheart x8

I think Taiwanese idol dramas can really ruin a person's life. Luckily im watching it 1 episode per week, or else i might not be able to concentrate on studies.

Oh wait. Without watching, i oso wun concentrate on studies. -.-

To me, Hi My Sweetheart is not nice. But thats the whole main point of the show. Only at the last episode then it will be nice. Not sure what i mean? WATCH IT. XD

It's like, after watching so many episodes, i feel sooo angry and sian. Cuz the thing that everyone wants to see is gonna happen at the last few episodes. So, the drama is NICE :)

Watch finish the latest episode. Like become sian sian as usual. SIAN. Im sian of becoming sian sian.

Holidays are gonna end! A torturing year is awaiting me! I dun wan!

How to make full use of my holidays to relax for the time being when there is sooo much homework to do? 饶命啊...

Im gonna tell myself to stop watching idol dramas next year. I really hate myself for following dramas one after another.

Mom at home for 3 days... Homework chionging time.

English letter still dunno how do!

Nvm. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

WEST MALL

2009-12-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

WEST MALL

1st time using draft blogger -.- Like no diff oso.

Went cut my hiar in the morning. Cut until super frankenstein! Dunno whether its considered nice... No comments.

Went West Mall with Genghao, Rashid, Liting to see Spore Idol Roadshow.
Saw Sylvia, Sezairi, Tabitha, Charles, Faizal, Duane and Farhan. LOL

Tabitha was 1st to come on stage. At first eveyone thought the main thing was she on stage. But after she came down, fans get to get her autographs and take pictures with her at one side. So crazy fan Rashid wanted to go to that side. After a little hesitation, like 5mins, i decided to go with him. The rest then followed us. It was so up close with her. But we were still at the back.

Then almost our turn. ALMOST la. Then she have to go in the makeup room or sth. According to Rashid, its like a 'dream gone'. No autograph, no picture. No picture with her la, but got alot of random blur of pics from far.

Ok then charles next, then Faizal.
Crazy fan Liting oso want to get his autograph and picture tgt. So when he got off the stage, got super close with him too.
Genghao too the notebook and pen and stuck out his hand towards Faizal, among so many people.
Faizal like buay song, but still sign.
Then, Liting's big moment came. To take picture with him. But when it was her turn, he have to go in the make-up room alr. -_- LOL. Another wasted one. But at least Liting got his autograph, Rashid got nothing -.-
Went to Mac after everything is over. Talked alot of stuff. Rashid reflecting on why his dream is gone. LOL
Talked alot of stuff when we're young. Like childish stuff we do. And also stupid stuff other people do.

Talk talk talk, can talk for 1hr30min -.- By the time it was 6. So we took MRT back home. Squeezy. Talk oso. Then bye.

Good experience today. Like see the idols in real life. I SAW DUANE REAL LIFE!!! OMG OMG -.-_-

Sylvia, be Singapore Idol! But if is not her, oso nvm.
Be Singapore Idol doesn't mean will be more famous or wad.

Look at Chris Daughtry. Adam Lambert. :)

Sian, dun remind me about homework alr.

Is lengthy post good or bad? Tell me leh.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Disappointment

2009-12-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

Disappointment

Liverpool lost to Portsmouth 2-0. But so what? DOES THAT MEAN U HAVE TO SAY THE F WORD TO GOD? F U BACK LA.

Why must he blame God for this loss? It's just another setback. It's just another loss.
What you sow, you will reap. Hard work put in, God will see it.

But you really think Liverpool put in hard work? NO.

After the red card, they cant come back from it. They lack in everything. So that's why even teams at the bottom of the table can win them. Im not surprised with the loss.

I cant believe that came out from a Liverpool fan's mouth.

Even my @#$% family members saying Liverpool is lousy. My mom want to noe the results. I noe what will be the outcome. But can i just dao her? no right. If i dun tell her. Then what? become i disrespect her.

After i told her, she like 'HUH? Liverpool so lousy. Play full force still like that.' Actually i got nothing wrong with that. But her way she spoke is like WAKAO. Is not like she noe everything about soccer. She only know Torres and Gerrard, thats all.
Cant they just keep quiet? My bro said i have a bad mood, and I and just deny it and she said 'It's not the end of the world.' WTH? or WTF? 'console'?

If i can, I really want to shout at them.

To Anti-Liverpool people: 'It's not the end of the world (ooo. ooo. OMG. Isn't that just said by my mom? I'm using it back at those people. ooo. ooo.) There are still TENS AND HUNDREDS of seasons for Liverpool to get things right.'

WAKAO. This makes me feel more like supporting Liverpool than giving up on them.

My enemies are my friends. LOSERS.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

You need to light up the world, and make a difference

2009-12-19T21:42:00.009+08:00

You need to light up the world, and make a difference

Today's Candlelight Service might be the best service i've had so far.
I really want all my friends can come for this service. But too late... :(

Pastor Kong's wife Sun Ho came. She is an international pop singer. Her song 'Fancy Free' is nice! She came back to celebrate Christmas with her family.

The service started with great Praise and Worship, including Christmas carols.

Then pastor Kong's sermon. Sooo touching. Like 3 touching stories he shared. I am sure that every person in the church sure have tears in their eyes. Im sure.

Then, candlelight time. It's my 1st time having candlelight service, and it was a good 1st one.

All the lights were switched off, and everyone had a candle. It started off with one candle, and then passed on to everyone. Can see from the photos, and theres a video. I used my phone, so its very blur -.-

It's like so cool. It's 100x better than the one in the photos. Can see everyone's flame. The atmosphere very good.

People come to church for the 1st time 80% will get saved from this serviced. Thats how good it is.

I really hope Christmas service will be better or the same, cuz got alot of frens coming. AAA.

Now Liverpool is losing 0-1 to Portsmouth. Lost focus due to Mascherano's red card. The red card quite stupid actually. Should be just yellow.

C'mon Liverpool! Why always like that one?

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

ARGHH

2009-12-19T13:18:00.000+08:00

ARGHH

Have some problems which are strangely solved.

Theres this st.margarets gal who keeps saying i love you and stuff, who wants to have an outing with the ngee ann china trip ppl. Is like, i dun wan to go actually, but i have to ask the rest of the NAS ppl. So i only asked 3 ppl, and the outing is on monday.

Due to my anti-n2ness i asked that gal to ask someone else in my group. Cuz i only asked 3, then maybe she can plan and organise.
Then, she wanted to cancel the outing, and im very obliged to it.

So, cancelled. Problem solved.

It's like so awkward, having an outing between 2 schools, whom we barely know each other for 2 weeks. And do you think we will talk to each other like we used to? i dunno.
It might be a fail outing.

But i feel very guilty. Nvm, i should think of other problems than this. Like homework.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

WHY?!

2009-12-18T15:26:00.002+08:00

WHY?!

It just looks like, im fated not to play soccer in my life.

But i shouldn't be asking myself Why life is so unfair, things like that. But even if i ask myself, i just have to accept it, or prove it wrong.

Im sure God will give me a chance to do something i want. Its not like something anti-Christ or something. And i can also do like 'cultural mandate' that kind of thing.

But why is everything in my life, arranged so that i cant play it?! Why in 2009, everything changed?

Country, family background, family, physique, genes (different from physique). Dun mention school and class la, cuz its something i can change. Regardless of that, why?!

No one can stop me from playing it. No one except God.

Remember last week i played soccer for the 1st time? Is with my bro and his frens.

Over there, i've got no one to talk to. Like sort of lonely la. But i want to play. Since my sec2 frens are no longer playing with me, i dun mind. Just find other opportunities, and now, i've finally found one after 1 whole year.
So, this opportunity came, and its gonna be gone.

Its complicated. Dunno how explain oso.

Just why?!?! Im desperate for an answer. Can i still play freely as i want. Does God dun want me to play soccer? Still, why?

In a dilemma. I still dunno if i can play soccer with my brother's friends tml. I dunno if i still have the courage, if i still have the passion for soccer.

~You'll Never Walk Alone.~

POKERFACE

2009-12-18T14:48:00.002+08:00

POKERFACE

Papapa Pokerface Papa Pokerface

About yesterday... Went to meet Kristine, Jasper and Janet at T mart to eat lunch. I was late. janet later than me.

Go kristine house. The mother so kind, offer us food and drinks.
So we started, then halfway me and Jasper go youtube see Lady Gaga and Taylor Swift.
Lady Gaga is so exotic!

LOL then do blog. Halfway again, dunno Jasper want to watch the Hoedown Throwdown dance stuff. Super lame.
Then i offered to watch Liverpool vs Wigan highlights. Janet and Jasper sian, me and Kristine watch. LOL.

So we blog somemore lame stuff. Pokerface -.-
Ended the blog with that guy died, and i copied one whole chunk of crap from the Strait's Times Orbituaries section. LOL

After that we go watch alot alot of lame stuff. Like Twilight, the last airbender, liverpool, then birthdates of random ppl.

Then Krisitne's maid cooked noodles for us LOL? So we ate. Considered my dinner. So bye.

On the bus with Janet. She played her handphone racing car game. And she epic fail man. the car went over a hump then the car twist and turn and landed on the opponent's car -.-''' LOL. and she is like driving the wrong way because of the twist and turn, then the opponent car and hers collide. FAIL.

So today, got this 'cell' at East Coast early in the morning. When i reached Bedok Interchanged, then i realised i didnt bring the guitar! :O
Went back and take again. It was super late alr. Ok so reach East Coast, play games, sing praise, then every1 have to share a message, and i didnt prepare anything cuz i dunno wad to prepare.

In the end, i managed to share something meaningful. Phew. God's wisdom!!! XD

I suddenly want more people to be saved, to accept Christ. plsplspls...

C'mon! You'll Never Walk Alone!

It's Not Over...

2009-12-17T10:33:00.002+08:00

It's Not Over...

Yesterday night was considered great, as i can use the com at night too becos i helped my mom sweep the floor -.- The floor at the computer table full of my dust! MY TERRITORY :X

Then i was downloading sth on the com last night, and the estimated time is 2hr 30min. 2 hours passed, and i left my com there, and suddenly, DCed. They say the download time out or sth, and i can see the downloading program behind... '6min left'
ARGHH.

Torrent sucks. Download so slow...

But Torres dun. See the link? XD Ok im not done with ytd, this part leave it for later.

I watched the Badminton SEA Games at 7, and its very exciting to watch. Very long rallies. Singapore won in the end -.-

8.30, watched Brilliant Creatures. Cool.

9, Kingdom of the Cobra, cooler. Especially when the cobra swallowed the rattlesnake.

10, Today at the Games. 1 gold medal by James Wong only -.-

10.30, American's Got Talent. Results show only. AcroDunk should have gone in! :(

11.30, Hotshot. Nice

12, watched 30min of Diminishing Horizons. DIMINISHING -.- Bubble Tea drink

12.30, Surgery Saved My Life. Very touching. This guy the digestive system not working, and they have to transplant a dead person's stomach, pancreas, small intestine, large intestine, bla bla for him. Surpressive drugs to prevent tissue rejection. All bio stuff.

1, buay tahan, didnt watch finish. Sleep.

Woke up. Liverpool won! Ngog and TORRES scored, and Wigan stoppage time goal -.- Always like that. Defence sucked this season, dunno why.

And Rafa put Aquilani and Torres on the bench! Why?!?!

Nvm, a win is still a win. It just took Torres 15min to score, and he is actually fit for that match, so why?!?! At least let him sub out than sub in la.
But he must not get injured again.

I want watch highlights!

Going Kristine's house to do project. I want finish by today. Homework is not going to ruin my holidays! :@

I LOVE THE OREO ADVERTISEMENT! The last part so cute!

ok bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Caught in a BAD ROMANCE

2009-12-16T11:13:00.002+08:00

Caught in a BAD ROMANCE

Lady Gaga's songs are very very nice, but her image screwed her -.-
If u just plain listen to her songs and dun see her mvs, u will think that the songs rocked.
She is exaggerating herself, with all those weird hairstyle, weird clothes. Why cant be simple like Taylor Swift?

I really dunno what's my aim in life. That is also called 'imaturity thinking', according to my mother.
Im finding it ok.

AND, my mom knows my blog.
If she can already memorise my blog website my heart, i dun care.
I dunno how often she reads it, but i dun care oso. Read then read la.
But it's rather awkward right? Friends can see our blogs freely, but when our parents see it, it's like invasion of privacy.
Like my teen life is disrupted. PROVOKED. DESTROYED. GONE.

U know what im getting at... -.-

I want soccer to be my aim in life. But who ask me to be born in singapore. who ask me to be born as an asian, where majority of them are 170-180cm. who ask ME, to inherit some weird genes, and become a small boy in everybody's eyes.
What can i do besides soccer? It's only studying.
I dunno whats so good about studying. There are more varieties in career only wad.
Why cant i find a unique and special job than all the same old ones?
Ohoh. Im not asking EVERYONE to do that. Just me. WHY CANT I?

My teen life is disrupted. PROVOKED. DESTROYED. GONE.

U know what i mean... -.-

I just know that being in Ngee Ann Secondary School, my whole life totally changed. Actually, since i transferred to Res Swastika, my life has totally changed. But Ngee Ann is worse enough for me.
Worse enough to ruin my aim in life, but career in the future.

But how can i change the direction God has given me? If u dunno what's ahead of you, just trust Him, and it may be 100x or 1000x better than the one you choose.

Mario Balotelli, Yossi Benayoun. Park Ji Sung. Eidur Gudjohnsen. Against all odds, different from all the rest, but could get all they wanted. How nice.

Although Balotelli still got problems with the Italian people. But at least he can get the career he wanted and ignore those insults.

I jsut have to trust God more. Can i get what i want? It's all up to Him. Maybe my life would be better if something really happens on that very day in 2012.

I really need the Holy Spirit on Friday and on Saturday.

And just why some people dun wan go church? Why people dont believe in God? Then who made this world? Who let u live on this planet? ARGHH

Make the best out of your life. But first believe in the One that created you. 饮水思源. remember your roots. remember the creater. remember God.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

TIME FLIES...

2009-12-15T14:17:00.002+08:00

TIME FLIES...

when we are enjoying ourselves... And time passes so slowly when we are in school or attending CCA. I want to swop leh...

Going to be the end of holidays already... My holidays are like shorter than the rest, cuz my 2 weeks in China is just like a dream. 1 month of holidays. Still can remember Sentosa trip. Bowling & Cycling outing. Prayer meeting. Churches. iWorship. Soccer (once only :(). And now it comes down to 2 weeks. These 2 weeks becomes homework chionging time. Cant enjoy anymore.

Dunno why in primary school i like Christmas and New Year. I HATE THEM ALR :(

Im sleeping at 1.30 almost everyday. So fun. But when go to school, the most 11.30. Boring.

Yesterday did 1 SS essay, which i think i did wrong. Cuz i referenced from my bro's notes, and the bro's notes essay is about which relations are more impt for Singapore. But the homework is which relations are more crucial for better relationships with other countries for Singapore. Something like that la. My essay still looks wrong. Dun care.

I oso dun care for my English Webquest. Like course for my cousin's university is Business Marketing (Kristine: what is that?! LOL)

Tour Group is 'Beijing Historical 2 days bus tour group' LOL

My parent's hobbies. Shopping (father dun). Sports(mother definitely dun). FAIL

Spent like 2 hours to do 1 day of itenary. Gave up.

I want play some new exciting game, but dun have :(

So my holidays is just wasted like that.

And my neighbour upstairs is like having renovation. The current record is like continuous drilling for 30sec. Like drill non-stop. WTH. But the only good thing is, well i dunno if thats the good thing, but i can shout loudly to myself for no good reason. LOL. Like LALALALALA very loud. So cool :D

I suddenly love Lady Gaga's songs. BAD ROMANCE. JUST DANCE. POKERFACE. TELEPHONE. LOL.

Nothing much to talk about in the holidays. Although i got so much time to blog. But just plain boring. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Difference between luck and miracles

2009-12-14T01:51:00.002+08:00

Difference between luck and miracles

Luck is due to right things happen at the right time at the right place.

Miracles are given by God for something good to happen.

But, if NO luck + miracles = nothing is gonna work out.

Really. Even if miracles are given like Torres and Aquilani are back from injury. And both plays for Liverpool against Arsenal, the team will still lose.

Even since their luck changed after Glen Johnson's own goal, Liverpool began playing badly, and everyone's morale dipped. The own goal was totally crap. It became worse after Arshavin scored. After the score was 1-2, Liverpool played badly. They had alot of chances, but all wasted. They do the RIGHT things at the wrong place, at the wrong time. Just 1 WRONG, and no luck. And unfortunately, this luck was given to Arsenal.

I was beginning to wonder if im the one being unlucky, cuz ever since i 'watched' soccer, Liverpool sux in the premier league. Or is Liverpool the one being unlucky? Why do i need to go through this?!
So Liverpool lost to Arsenal 1-2. I've really lost hope.
With hope in your hearts? False hope makes me worse.

Just, dun give up Liverpool. Just try harder, and prove luck wrong.

...............

Ok besides all that, today i went to iluma with Rashid to see the Singapore Idol finalists. Actually, we wanted to see Sylvia only. -.- Sezairi, 3 Polo Boys and 3 actresses from new drama 'The Pupil'.
Rashid took epic fail pictures of Sylvia, and we stand until our legs ache. When it ended, we walked past a Singapore Idol bus. Rashid tot that the finalists will get onto the bus so he asked me to wait. So waited for 5-10mins, they didnt come. And the bus drove away. Disappointing day? I've just got no luck. Maybe Rashid too.

Luckily im not that crazy in soccer alr since sec2 (for some @#$%& reason). Last time, when they lose, i cry like crazy. Every big match my teeth will chatter, my legs will shiver when watching the matches. Now, no. And im glad it is that way.

Bad Romance, Just Dance and Pokerface ROCK. LADY GOOGOOGAGA

~You'll Never Walk Alone. Never Give Up, LIVERPOOL. I will always be with you.~

What is my DREAM?

2009-12-13T09:54:00.003+08:00

What is my DREAM?

Can i make it come true?
What can i do to increase the chance of fulfilling my dream?

It's so hard... im so close, yet so far... :(
I NEED A MIRACLE...

Yesterday's church service was great. About dreams. Then ytd was the first time i got slain. It's like, taking a big step forward in my Christian life. But the way i fall down so stupid la... Then i bang my head on the floor LOL.
A Connect Group Leader! :O

Also had a great fellowship after service with me, Yiren, Esther, Tayxi and Natalia. :)

Soccer results ytd are the best!
Man Utd 0-1 Aston Villa
Chelsea 3-3 Everton (Good job Merseysider!)
Wolves 0-1 Tottenham (LOL?)
Bolton 3-3 Man City

So all drop points :) Except Aston Villa -.- But i rather Man Utd lose!

Catch up Liverpool!!! Against Arsenal today :O :( Must win!!!

It's 10am in a Sunday morning, and theres only 2 people (including me) online? LOL

Rashid asked me to go see Sylvia at 2pm -.- Haven ask my parents yet.

I want play soccer again! Hope i can play every weekends...

Phone bill, pls dun burst!!! I cut down alot alr!

Survivor is an idiotic game of backstabbers!

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

FINALLY

2009-12-12T15:07:00.004+08:00

FINALLY

I got to play soccer(real one) for the 1st time in the holidays!!! Today morning, played with my brother's friends and some mats. They see me small then let me be keeper LOL. But 2 games only la, then after i be striker they wa here wa there... But still not very good la. So long never play...
So happy LOL!

Yesterday guitar lesson, teacher taught us 'You Are Not Alone' by Michael Jackson. And you noe what, its not chords, its plucking! So its super nice!!! And quite easy! I like practiced for 2 hours since yesterday lesson alr. LOL! Finally, a song that is not difficult and nice! :D

Show Luo and Rainie Yang sang 3 songs EACH for 海派甜心! WA...

Did abit of English Webquest yesterday. Although i only did details of the trip and Day 1, but i do most of the research already. Like all the places of interests. Somemore i choose Beijing, so it's super easy for me!! Like just went there for 2 weeks, and now im so called writing about what i did over there. I also chose the same hotel, same restaurant, bla bla. LOL!
Felt so accomplished yesterday...

SEA games, Thailand out of football competition :O :) XD :D
So lucky. But i doubt Singapore can get gold for football. Their defenders suck. Strikers camp in front. Midfielders any how pass the ball infront hoping that the striker will get it. No hope la.

Liverpool vs Arsenal tml. Torres and Aquilani finally back! I really hope they wont play Lucas for the match.
Hope Man Utd and Chelsea can drop points today. Actually, Man City and Tottenham too -.- Liverpool must catch up with those SMALL teams 1st.

If the world ends at 2012, I have wasted my whole life in school XD
Is a facebook group. But that's rather true.
Excuse for not doing homework in the 2012 Nov-Dec holidays is because you thought the world is ending on 12 December 2012.

Imagine on that day. Maybe im serving NS or something.
At Pulau Tekong... Christon: "NS! WOO!" Rashid: "Oh sian :(" My bro: "YAY im out of NS! WOO! FREEDOM! :D"
Then suddenly, CHIKABOOM! Pulau Tekong sinking... Christon: 'NO...' Rashid: 'YES! :)'
My bro: 'AAA %#@&$% **** Singapore sinking also? NOOOO"

HEH.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Head Over Heels

2009-12-11T11:14:00.003+08:00

Head Over Heels

LOL i hear 爱疯头 and 雨爱 by Show Lo and Rainie Yang respectively then dun feel like doing homework liao. SIAN.

The 爱疯头 in the playlist is taken from the opening of the show, so is vert short.

Very little people to talk to now, with Kristine and Geng Hao overseas. Cant play bowling... Anyway they will be back in a few days' time, not like 2 weeks -.-

I want to blog longer so people can listen the 1st 2 songs... LOL

A great drama to end 2009 and start 2010... How nice -_-

2010 will be the biggest year of my life so far. Feeling the pressure.

Yesterday, went to Riverwalk to attend a session called iWorship, by Brother Poh. Yiren, Huiyen, Genghao, Ah xi, Ah bin, Esther, Aaron, Ailin and Natalia were there too.
It was great. Brother Poh is the Worship Leader. So he is like singing on the stage during Praise and Worship. So when worshipping, can really feel the presence of God the minute he started singing and strumming the guitar.

Then we celebrated Huiyen's birthday, which is actually 5 days away. Gave her one big board with pictures and our wishes. Then Natalia shared with us chocolate mochi and melon chocolate... Both very nice.

I got EAGLES award! Another $200! $500 + $200 = $700!!! I really hope i can use the money to buy some stuff that i like, but considering yesterday's lecture, oh forget it :(

Got like $1700 for 3 years, and didnt buy anything. The only wish came true due to my results was in sec1. I wanted to quit Wushu from outside one. So i quit, and join guitar. Actually i really want piano, but the fees are super ex, so giutar lor. Still good anyway.

But i really want get something from all these money. GRR. Im like earning money through studies, and the money is mine, and i cant use it?

After O'lvls, i will use all these accumulated money for something. Hope it works :X

If next year i can get, that will be $2000 plus. WOW. But i just want to use about $500 of it. And also subscribe Singtel or Starhub or wadever. Can???

Ask my parents next year. WOO

Finished Geog homework yesterday! Actually planning to do SS essay today, but very sian -.- Do webquest? Im gonna do beijing! XD. All the hotels, places of interests, and good place to eat all i know! XDXD

Taylor Swift's Fifteen is the right song for 94ers (DUH). Especially i am 15 years and 15 days old LOLLOL. 30November - 26November = 4days Now is 11th December. 4+11=15 WOW. YOW. WOO. Like some magic number -.-
So today's my day? no way.

People say they love u, and u believe. OH how blind.
The year where backstabbers are very common.
People break up and cry. At fifteen. -.-
People act cool in class.
Guys pao niu (i witnessed that -_-)

LOL i actually know all these things. Is that maturity? ~~YES~~
Im still a small kid -.- Smaller than fifteen.
I think my body is like a 12-13 year old o.0

Well thats how life is. I NEED TIME.

Bye,

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Reflect

2009-12-10T12:37:00.002+08:00

Reflect

Received a 1 hour lecture from my mom ytd... 10pm to 11pm. There may be more next week. Want join me? XD

Some parts in the lecture are true, while some are plain misunderstanding.
the true parts are that i've slacked too much in the holidays, using the com from morning to afternoon. Said that i can get $500 is because of the marks, not about grade. Now i got 9 points -.-
Ok... just some usual wake-up call LOL

But the misunderstanding is that, she said that i used very little time to study. HEY. Dun compare me with my bro. He's studying the HARD WAY. What's wrong with studying the smart way?

And u didnt see me in school, so u dunno anything. U think i study very little? Then my results just drop down from the sky issit? Think i like some genius or have some super memory? Im just an ORDINARY KID.

I have no interest in studying. True. But do u even know what is my interest? Do u know why i want to grow up, grow tall so much? you DUN EVEN KNOW. Saying my physique is not cut out for sports. But hey, there are so many people who are like 1.6m tall and can play professionally. Dun belittle small in physique people ok.

But im not given enough time to pursue my dream. Singapore stresses so much about studies, and given my family background, all i can do is study, study, study. My mother side all scholars WT(f).

I guess the world is just like that. SUPER UNFAIR. I HATE IT. But what to do, i have to LIVE WITH IT.

And stop saying that im making u a bad person. Im not. Im just stating the truth. If i tell u how i feel ytd, im sure one of us will leave the house.

I also suck at expressing myself la. I say out i sure cry one.

Anyway. Im still not changing my attitude about studies. I hate it, and it will always be like that. I guess my dream is only my hobby, for leisure :(

Ok enough about that.

Kristine leaving today to Taiwan, Genghao is leaving tomorrow for Japan (-.-) Bon voyage both of you! :D
Kristine going to 2 countries in this holidays... So good. Somemore both place different weather.

Glad my mom allow me to go for the thingy(dunno what is it called) tonight.

Got Audition Portable! And i suck at it :( -.-

Still haven do Bio project! Must wait Kristine to come back 1st...

Yesterday, (after the lecture), i continue reading 'Ai De Li Wu'. And theres this super lame chapter called '深宵'. Is like some ghost story, but i laugh instead of freaking out. It's super lame. I think this is the only ghost story that i won't get nightmares. HCL students, go read. Dam EPIC FAIL this chapter LOL. The female character in the chapter is SUPER FAIL. NOOB -.-

Watched Hotshot, then The Unbeatables 3. LOL. The latter is the gambling one la LOL. Now the storyline quite exciting. LOL.

I really want to change my handphone plan. Now 360 messages in a month is like so little, not like sec1 -.-

Bro singing a song+playing a guitar for gf dam FAIL. Seriously. But see sincerity can liao la, dun care all the zao xias and the long pauses. LOL.

Have to chiong my homework alr. Doing geog. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

海派甜心

2009-12-09T15:05:00.002+08:00

海派甜心

making a double post...

Both the song and show are very nice. Taiwanese idol dramas got alot of kissing scenes LOL.

I already felt so accomplished after doing a 7 marks geog question in the worksheet which i can just copy from geog notes. What's wrong with me?!?! LOL not to mention that i've just found my SS worksheet and my boolkist(LOL) in a pile of exam papers+chinese assessment papers+every worksheet from every subject this year. Realised i have Pawandip's Geog EOY exam paper with me. LOL. What am i doing during the last few days of school...

The China trip is now like a memory of the past already, learning to move on...
Now no more China trip, but is holiday+extravagant life.
1 more month, school life -.-
7 more months, study chionging life.
11 more months, FREEDOM! :D

But JC very tough, poly also. Which one to go?

What's my occupation when i grow up? I DUNNO.

I want to find my dream. Soon.

I want play soccer!!!

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Procrastinate...

2009-12-09T09:16:00.003+08:00

Procrastinate...

This might happen everyday in my sec4 life. Im not ready for O'lvls. I dun even wanna take it. Still procrastinating to do my homework, while im left with 3 weeks plus.

Yesterday didnt do much homework. Did 2 topics of A Maths TYS. Realised that the protesting plan has failed already... Haizz.

Singapore Idol, Tabitha was out. Although she sang better than Sezairi. He got too many malay fans alr :( So who's gonna be Singapore Idol?

OWEN HATTRICK!!! :D Although for Man Utd :(
Chelsea draw 2-2, although they dominated the match :) They now fail to win in 3 games... HEHEHE

Im still procrastinating to cut my hair. Well, actually is im lazy :X But i dun wan cut so early, when school reopen hair shorter better. And i hate haircuts. ARGHH

This holiday is my last freedom. But im not enjoying it :(

There's so little to talk about during the holidays :(

Edited my playlist. Feel free to listen all the songs. :)

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Monday-the most anticipated day in the holidays

2009-12-07T13:58:00.003+08:00

Monday-the most anticipated day in the holidays

That's because new episodes of Taiwanese idol dramas come out! Actually is on Sunday nights, but on Monday then upload on internet.

Watched finish alr LOL. Now must wait for next week -.-

But, Monday is the day no one will anticipate when school reopens -.- Unless got PE on that day. LOL

Yesterday went my grandpa house. Aunties play mahjong (as usual), and i have the sudden urge to play. But they got use money one ('gamble'), but is only 10 cents 20 cents that kind LOL. But i rather dun gamble and play viwawa's 'Wahjong'... LOL.

I think i got to remind myself about homework alr. One week passed, and er... i dun wan repeat what have i just done. I've not much time. How?!?!

What's so nice about my I/C no.? It's like a curse. Although no doubt im lucky to have so many same numbers. But got disadvantage also. I dunno got how many people memorised my I/C alr. Then they can use my I/C no. to do certain things. Aiyo. INVASION OF MY PRIVACY. LOL wadever...

And still haven't cut my hair!
And dunno if i can go for the hill climbing trip...

Got some facebook groups are very cool, like 'I have already died 147 times for not forwarding those chain e mails' and also 'when i was young i use to think that the moon was following my car'. LOL. Got lots more la. Reminds me of all the stupid things we do.

If people from Poland are called Poles, then why aren't people from Holland not called Holes? DAM LAME.

I want more holidays.

Rashid, jiayou.

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

You are my distraction...

2009-12-06T15:37:00.002+08:00

You are my distraction...

Ytd service was good... LOL but cannot get some parts of what Rev.John Avazini was saying...
But the offereing part was dam cool. After we give the offering envelopes, then Rev.John said a few more words, then alot of ppl suddenly want to have another offering envelope to give more money. I think about half of the church did that... So is like people coming up to put the envelopes for like half an hour. So, the baskets are rather full. HOLY GHOST LOL. That's what Rev.John said.

Liverpool drew 0-0 with Blackburn ytd. RED ALERT.
Man Utd win 4-0 -.-
Arsenal win 2-0
Chelsea lost 1-2 to Man City! Only celebration for me -.- Although Man City is above Liverpool in the table. :'(

Phineas and Ferb new episode coming out today, but Youtube dun have yet. It's Christmas special.

Tml, 桃花小妹 and 海派甜心 new episodes coming out. And 海派甜心 is MUCH nicer than 桃花小妹 pls... But i watch both LOL. The storyline of the latter abit weird now. Episode 7 already and the story still like hanging mid-air.

I think i realised why my bro always go out alr. Im also sick of home sometimes :X Every 5 mins, 1 scolding.

I guess, Singapore isn't my favourite country anymore. There's nothing wrong having a lack of intelligence.

Intelligence is a BAD thing. Ok, as in studies that kind.

I want to get out of this world. Or maybe just Singapore.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

~PrAyErWaRrIoR~

2009-12-05T11:09:00.003+08:00

~PrAyErWaRrIoR~

Homeworks are so annoying, especially holiday ones... I hope the whole class can protest and dun do homework, but alr got spoilers such as Amelia, Mavis, etc. -.- What u expect from 3r1? GONE CASE.

This week, i only copied 24 MCQ Chem qns, and did about 10 A Maths small parts questions, like (i), (ii) that kind... Read like 2 chapters of Chinese book.

Ok maybe im expecting too much. Maybe half the class? Maybe also GONE CASE -.-

Still loving my China trip. Still can remember how much i procrastinate about going there. When the trip was cancelled (but then never), i still like so happy. Didnt realise how much fun there could be. Seeing China students suffer in school while we can sleep in their classes. But i think the situation we are in now is worse than them. Doing homework in a holiday mood is a NO for me.

China trip <3

LOL 1st time using that heart shape sign-.-

Ok... must stop thinking and move on. Forward thinking and stay relevant. LOL SS wadever.

Ytd, didnt blog, cuz no time.

Went E290 Prayer meeting ytd. Geng Hao was freaking late -.- Sang praise and worship. Then prayed for like half an hour (?) on many stuff. I spoke in tongues until i got sore throat -.- Then when its my turn to pray, Ailin spoke in tongues so loud that i could barely hear myself. LOL.

So, short and sweet. Cool.

Next, we went to eat dinner at Bedok Interchange. Ailin did not go with us, Huiyen da bao-ed home. Tay Xi joined us after her tuition. So is Yiren, Genghao, Taybin, Tayxi and I.
I left early cuz got guitar.

Played Marriage D'Amor. COOL. But super hard. See the notes like beansprouts like that. Soo cheem. My hand not agile enough. But after that, my teacher finally taught us a strumming song, Last Christmas! WOOOO
Quite easy to play, like 4 chords repetition only. But strumming patterns different la...
COOL. I think i prefer strumming now rather than plucking -.- Strumming can sing at the same time, but plucking is the melody, so can only match with chords... Haizz. Should join Monday classes.

So went home after that. met my mom at Tampines Interchange. Watch Peter Pan -.-'''.
Watched Channel 5 news, then Seconds from Disaster, then Channel U news, then Hotshot. Played PSP, do crunches, pray(quiet time), sleep -.- I think thats my routine for every weekday la -.-

Gonna practice Last Christmas and Thunder later... WOOO

I will be missing the Singapore vs Indonesia match at 4pm today cuz going to church. But must think which one more impt? LOL

Viwawa Wahjong rox... LOL. Better than going my grandpa house and seeing my aunties play only -.-

Rashid cant use the com :( Jiayou Rashid. Breakthrough LOL. Ok serious... Hope he will noe how to manage his time, and his parents will allow him to use... Use his $500 to pay electricity bills XD

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

PASIR RIS OUTING

2009-12-03T18:27:00.003+08:00

PASIR RIS OUTING

Woke up late today. Set my alarm clock(hp) at 8.15, then i keep snoozing it. Then dunno why snooze until no more alarm alr. LOL.
So woke up at 9.30.

Woke up by my bro, he was outside, and he called to ask if who score for the Man city-arsenal match, and the blackburn-chelsea match. LOL i sms the names until very pekcek -.-

Went to Whitesands at 12. Cynthia, who wanted this outing, didnt come and went to watch 'New Moon' instead. LOL

Received presents today from Cynthia, Kristine, Jasper and Liting. Thanks so much! Btw, i already thanked the cell group for their presents, and also the NAS ppl who went to China with me. Also those who wished me. LOL -.-

Cynthia's present was cool! The name is 'Never Fall Down' pen. At first i dunno it was a pen, until Kristine told me. That's why i was wondering where go pen? LOL. 'Never Fall Down'! COOL! About physics, is like Humpy Dumpty(?), where can never fall down one. And the company name is called MiracleDreams! WOW. Wrote me a cool note too :)

Kristine's present was a Liverpool 2010 calendar... Got photos inside very nice! Still gonna keep it after 2010...

Liting's present was a Koala bought from Australia. Like a souvenir. Also got note for me..

So thanks guys! :D

1st, we went to Whitesands to eat. Then they all talk about Australia stuff. Dreamworld like so cool, all the rides so exciting.

Then we walked to E!hub. Junjie arrived. Then we played bowling. Highest! WOO... 101pts..
In the middle of the game, Rashid came, but didnt play :( Maybe he can win me LOL.

Next, we went cycling. 2nd time cycling for Rashid, so still not mastering it well. Nvm, it takes time. Then we saw 2 monkeys at Pasir Ris Park. Rode for 1 hour.

Went back Whitesands to buy bbt. Junjie and Jasper left. We talked for awhile, then me and Kristine left. We went to Times at Tampines 1, got Torres's biography! WOO... But no Gerrard's one. Awww.

Popular, even more no hope. So just went home.

Now eating chicken rice for dinner while blogging. There's another boy in the Yow family! So my grandparents wont dote on us so much alr! LOL. And that boy(my cousin -.-) bday on 27November! LOL! Mom go and visit my cousin. Bro go out. Freedom! For 1 hour? LOL

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

ANOTHER LOW PRODUCTIVE DAY

2009-12-02T19:10:00.003+08:00

ANOTHER LOW PRODUCTIVE DAY

I 'did' 24 MCQ Chem QA questions only :( I 'did' it cuz i all dunno how do, and thanks to Geng Hao and Rashid -.- Why am i so stupid now.

I found another Taiwanese idol Drama! Hi My Sweetheart. Dam nice. :) And my mom sure scold if she finds out im seeing these kind of shows again :X

Got Edusave Scholarship! I guess this is the only inspiration for me to study well ^^
$500!
Er, sorry for those who dun have... But JY for next year! Next year although is o'lvls, but still have de. I think prelims? I not sure. But sure have :)

And the Mother Tongue book, Ai De Li Wu, super lame!!! Read 2 short stories only, but is very lame. Got one is like not even love lor, dun get it sia.

Alot of homework! English Webquest so hard!!! What holiday crap! But i think i got inspiration to write about China... LOL.

I haven cut my hair!! Tml go out(maybe) look like a gal! AAA
Anyway, i oso dunno how tell the barber what to cut. Anyhow say one. Hope i can cut a good one.
And stop procrastinating! Must cut by this week! Grrr...

Rashid bluffed me today! AAA! Not funny...

LOL i guess i got nothing much to talk.

Singapore Idol later! I dun care who out le la... But i want a female Singapore Idol!

That's all. You'll Never Walk Alone.

COM MARATHON

2009-12-01T16:08:00.002+08:00

COM MARATHON

Spent the whole day at home today... but it was rather fun.
Use the com. Msn, facebook, youtube, tv, and MAYBE homework.

I haven started on any homework yet, and i hope i will do it tonight.
Thinking of A Maths.

Why Singapore so concerned about studies. I mean, i noe why la, but why Singapore? Only thing i dun like about Singapore is becos the studies and also lousy in soccer.
Ok, thats 2 things. WADEVA!!!

Wants to exercise, but lazy. Holidays are torturous. School days better la. Or go overseas. Like China. Hebei. Shi Jia Zhuang. AAA

Regretted not bringing camera for the trip. Can capture alot of good memories.
Unforgettale experience. And for the 1st time, i felt the trip was rather short -.-

Show me the meaning, of being lonely.

Can play a little of Thunder with the guitar. Still love reading notes from scores more than chords, although its harder. I suddenly wan learn strumming, dun care plucking le!!!

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. Since Singapore everyday summer, so your voice IS the soundtrack of everyday la -.- True, true.

Miss Bukit Panjang clowns, and St.Margaret's friends. Jeshrei!!! JEsus SHall REIgn!!!
Liverpool fan!!! Wenjie too! Although never talk to him before-.-

In China, we go knock random Bukit Panjang hotel door, then give them orange and shout 'Gong Xi Fa Cai, hongbao na lai!' LOLLOL

Wa sian -.- I shouldn't stop thinking about it.

Maybe this is the last overseas trip in Ngee Ann :( Ohhh man how to put crying face :(

I dun wan hear this word 'cute' for the rest of the holidays alr! Im not cute!

~That's All People Who Anyhow Say People! But, You'll Never Walk Alone XD~

TIRING MONDAY

2009-11-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

TIRING MONDAY

I started off the day by forgetting to set my alarm clock at midnight -.-

So next morning, i woke up thru my bro's alarm clock(hp la). 7.45!!!! OMG

So i rush rush rush. By 8.15 i was ready alr, then suddenly tot of collecting IC. But i 4got wheres my IC slip!!! I last saw it was like, even be4 EP -.-

Flip books, magazines, bla bla. 15mins finding, I finally found it. It's not short for 15mins, i tell you. It's 15x60sec = 900sec!!!
900sec rammaging my dining table.

Ok, then i left the house in a hurry, bus 28 came just in time. So 'LUCKY' of me -.-
When i reached SAFRA Tampines, i just realised that i forgot to bring my blazer! -.- I was so SOSOSOSO angry with myself!!! SO GUNDU LIKE %^&%^&#%^&

Alighted from the bus stop, cross traffic light, took bus. Went home, take blazer, then wondering if the hanger is school one. Then i decided not to care, then rushed out of home. Waited 5mins for the bus 18, passed by SAFRA. 25mins gone. tick tock tick tock AAA

Ok so go school, i saw a few Scouts sitting at NAScafe. Benedict was there. I know what he's thinking when he saw my soccer ball. SIAN SIAN.

Before blogging furthermore, SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN!!!
If i was in school earlier, i wouldn't see him, and he wouldn't see me. So he wun misunderstand or sth. SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN.

So, went to Harbourfront MRT for the E290 Sentosa trip. Was late. Like DUH. Anyway, so sorry! So, 1st time saw Natalia, the previous cell grp leader. What about now? I not sure. LOL DAUGHTRY.

Ok.. had a fun time in Sentosa. Got games planned for us, not bad.
Then the soccer game really FAIL. At first is like 2 ppl tie one of their leg together then run. Super hard. I guess the gals got more mo qi with each other. Gals pwn boys :( =.=
But then when it comes to the no more tie leg part, still CMI. Cuz yiren want take photos in the MIDDLE OF THE GAME, and at first he was like helping the wrong team -.-

Then went into the sea. Then go toilet bathe. Super sian. My shoe full of sand, then my feet not dry, then wear socks. Took very long oso.

Then we went to a bridge, when to another 'island' and took some pictures. Then i had to leave 1st cuz got dental -.- :(

At Vivo, i got lost LOL. I dunno wheres the MRT. So, i was late for dentist -.- LATE FOR EVERYTHING.

The dentist saw my soccer ball, then suddenly ask me if i got watch the Arsenal and Chelsea match. Then i said no, then he was like giving me free highlights LOL. So cool, and he was saying while pulling and clipping my braces. Not bad. Trying to divert my attention.

Then he tok about his good ol days, last time he played soccer be4. Then he giving me free History lessons too -.- About Victoria school was beside Jalan Besar stadium last time. Last time, when i was studying Denthology(?), no one in my group play soccer bla bla.
bla bla :(

Then got this St. Margarets girl, called Wan Wen. She quite close to me, cuz she very outgoing. So everytime chat with her. Then today evening, when i wanted to end the conver, she sms me,

'thanks love, you're a really nice guy. text me more never k? then we can go hang out also. I love you ^^'

WTH? WTH? Of course during that time i scared, so i asked her 'erm.. love?'

Then she smsed 'erm.. sorry. Lol. erm... Like?'

LOLLOL. Then i just sms 'oh LOL ok bye.'

Btw, she always ends with bye love. I dunno if she sms this to other ppl onot la...

I will feel dam guilty if she sees this.
Like, as in admire rite? Rite? Rite? Rite? Rite? Rite? Rite? Rite? Rite?

YES! :)

Hope so...

AA should stop thinking. Anyway, i dunno whether i got the chance to talk to her again onot. She is the one who always initiate the conver, so... -.-''' :X -.-?

Love is stupid for teens, and also complicated. AA and i got a problem with that. No real love. It's fake for teens. But what about now for me? My feelings are crap. CRAP.

AAA i dun wan care. I should care more for my homework. Haven even started!!!
Haven cut hair!!! Dun care -.-

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

THE GREAT ESCAPE

2009-11-29T12:51:00.004+08:00

THE GREAT ESCAPE

Pls dun tell me this song reminds me of the Dec holidays -.-

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE rox!!! The lyrics dam cool. Love songs with meaningful lyrics XD

Matthew 19:26 and Phillipians 4:13... they are both related.

Throw it away... forget yesterday... we'll make the great escape...

Miracles... still cant forget how you changed me!!! XDXD

I made the scariest dreamS yesterday. S in caps, called i made 3 of them -.- All nightmares.

I was like some policeman/soldier in my dream.

In the 1st one, i was holiding a sniper and a beretta -.- Dreams are random... so... LOL
So, the whole team need to capture one wanted man, who is a skillful murderer. He's like Joker that kind, like can escape anyhow one. So it was super scary. I encountered him like 4-5 times. Then almost died everytime. And every encounter im like suuuuper scared. And the last encounter, my friend died, and i lost my right arm. Dun ask me how -.-

Then suddenly i woke up. I couldn't move, like kena paralysed. Then my mom scold me cuz of some stuff, and im like bla bla bla, and went back to sleep.

2nd one, I dun have my sniper le. LOL. And my friend died, so it's like continued from the 1st dream.
But now is switched to another venue, like got many shops one. And this is dam scary. When i saw the wanted man, i immediately shot a few times at him. But who knows, he was wearing a bullet-proof armour. WTH. Then that guy was like laughing crazily, and began to shoot randomly. Many people died, and i dunno how i survived.
Cuz that guy is like my nemesis or sth, so he wanted to kill me only. I had to run. It was impossible for me to kill him with his armor.
I then ran to some clothes shop, and it was like a shophouse. So i ran up the shop house, and he was like walking slowly behind me. He crazy one. Then i hid under the bed, trying hard not to breathe loudly. Then i was thinking of like, when he entered the room, i aim his head or sth. But i was suuper nervous that time. And i bet he already killed the shopowner :( All my fault :(
So i decided to be a coward and hide under the bed until he was gone :(
Just as he entered the room, i woke up -.-

My dad was like putting my luggage in my cupboard after cleaning it. Bla bla bla, and i went to sleep again. I realised that the 2nd dream lasted for 30mins only. LOL phew.

Actually i wanted to wake up, but i was too tired and went back to sleep. bad choice.

Ok, so i was a policeman again. With my beretta. There's this another wanted man, different from 1st and 2nd dream. Is like, my police team ambushed him in his house. Got his wife there oso. And i was the one who shot him. -.- I shot him like alot of times, afraid that he would not die. Then his wife is like AAAAHHH all the way.

Then his body dam bloodied, and iw as like crying there. Cuz i was feeling so sad that time. Then dunno why one of my team members asked me to take picture of that guy. I assumed that time is that take picture to bring back to HQ to tell them that he died -.-
So he died, then dunno why, i have to stay at that guy's house for 1 night. LOL dunno why.
And is ME ALONE. Wth? My dream why so weird and scary -.-

And not to mention got the wife. She was like sad and angry with me, so i was worried she might kill me in the middle of the night or sth. And my room can't lock! LOL. So i was like living the night in fear. Then i slept. When i woke up, she was walking to my room! AAA!!!
Then i woke up. LOL phew.

Dreams are really SUPER SUPER SUPER RANDOM.

But i was quite sad after i woke up. I was like wondering why thruout the whole dreams, i have not thought of God at all. Cuz i was like hanging on the life and death line, and i didnt think of Him and pray that kind of thing. Haizzz.

Im gonna check what causes dreams man. I really want to know how all these random things can come to our mind just like that.

Im still quite freaked out by my dream LOL.

Should i cut my hair? AA sian. Going to a different barber. Will it be worse?
Dunno.

Everton vs LIVERPOOL tonight(WOOOO)
ARSENAL vs Chelsea oso LOL

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

2009-11-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Really want to thank the cell group for their keychain they gave me :)
Matthew 19:26. With God, nothing is impossible.

Had a great day in church today. Concerning my dream... Hmm... Issit time to give up? In our offerring envelopes, we have to write our own dreams. I wrote 3. Is like 1st one, bla bla. If 1st one cannot, then 2nd one. Then 3rd one. LOL. I think its time to give up my 1st dream :(

I want read Clement's Purpose-Driven Life book!!!

693 messages in 1 month?!?!?! That's IMPOSSIBLE.
Am i contradicting myself? LOL

But how can that be? Thats like, more than 20+ msgs a day! OMG. The bill is even more than my weekly allowance. Have to try cut down alr. Sorry Cynthia :(

Love is such a complicated thing... TLW 19 :(
Im living every day like a year. So tough, so long. How long will it take??
Everything's too complicated, only God understands.
But i am still not close, not strong. Im trying my best to trust Him, and there is very little i can do, so how?
It's in my genes :(

Church today, was late :X Missed the 1st praise song (i think).

The sermon today is about Caleb. He persevered 45 years for his dream. Im sure, he is living everyday like a year too. How strong his faith is...

I need to be like Caleb. I need to be like Job. If you don't see God's hand, trust His heart. I have to learn to do that.

My bro chatting with his gf... bla bla bla. Too bad he is a loud speaker. And i can hear everything that he said :(

Ok im random thruout. Hope u all can understand what im saying.

But actually, it all links together. Every problem links. Just like humans, we are all related.

-.- ok random.

I really hope it can happen now. But is it because im not strong enuf? Although im trying to. :(

I shouldn't stop thinking about it. I have to go back to reality.

So, let my life be His clay. Mould me in His way.

Hope He helps me :(
No, is :)
I have to trust His heart. Trust more.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

TICK TOCK

2009-11-28T11:26:00.002+08:00

TICK TOCK

I really need time to prove everything. But how much time. 1 month? 1 year? or even 3 years? :(

Anyway, i want to blog more about the China trip thingy. I realised that i loved the trip alot. Just suddenly. Cuz when reached Singapore, everything was like gone.
he trip was just like a dream. When i reached home, i feel that nothing has been changed. :(
Just admit it Christon, u missed it -.-

On 24th November, i became the worst person on earth. The boys and our buddies and their parents went mountain climbing. It is about 5 times tougher than the one in Koref, cuz its a mountain, not a hill -.- We didnt managed to climb up to the summit due to time constrains.

THEN, THE INCIDENT HAPPENED.
On our way down, there is snow along the path. So, we decided to play snowball fight. I threw one at Clement. OUCH.
Then i decided to throw another one. Suay suay, i hit Clement. Again. Actually before i threw, he told me to stop throwing, but i didnt hear. So i blame my ears, or my carelessness?

So i hit him on his ears, and it was dam cold. I noe the feeling. So, he started to chase me down the mountain. And it was NOT FUNNY. He was realy angry and keep shouting at me. At first i still didnt know he was angry. HOW STUPID WAS I. But once i know he was angry, i stopped running.

I decided to let him do whatever to me. But, he didnt. I respected him for that. Cuz he said he didnt want to go back to his gangster ways, and furthermore he is a Christian now. Really respected him alot.

But i still felt guilty of that :(

After that, the boys went seperate ways to our buddies' house. My buddy's family taught me how to make dumplings. COOL. But i became the bad boy again -.-

After making the dumplings, we ate them. The parents gave me 20+ dumplings to eat. I noe i can reject and just ask for 10, but i didnt. So, i was dam full, and couldn't finish the last 2. So the parents cleared them for me. WASTE FOOD.

Then anothing thing happened. We were playing computer games, and i FARTED. SUPER LOUD. And i was like dui bu qi dui bu qi -.- OMG.

He gave me his hp no and his email. I only gave him my email. SO BAD. I DUNNO WHY I JUST DUN WAN TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS.

Ok on 26/11 midnight. Cynthia was the 1st to wish me. :)

Then Eugene and Kaixin was at the hotel bed behind (im the lightbulb -.-) and they suddenly shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY. -.- I was using the com at that time. So i just turned my head to them, and said, Oh ok thanks. -.- LOL.

Then, got a few more wishes on msn. Then, ding dong on my door. Eugene opened it. Cherie, Yuyun and Shuqi shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I said, oh ok thanks. -.-

LOL. I guess i have no mood on my birthday at that time.

26/11 7 plus in the morning, the NAS ppl celebrated my bday. And i was so expressionless. But i was touched. And i was giving the impression that i didnt enjoy it. OH DAMN. They gave me a portrait of me. Doesnt look like me. LOL nvm..

I am being such a bad guy. Sorry ppl cuz i that time no mood. LOL anyway they oso wun see this blog. Just want to let God know that im sorry.

And also, I didnt read my Christian book that the cell grp gave me during the trip. I guess i read 1 paragraph only. BAD BAD.

And i didnt take any photographs. Cuz outside was so cold, and i have to take off my gloves to take pictures. My handphone tiny. So i didnt. I think i took 1 photo of the snow only, then wa my hand so cold. LOL zz bad bad.

But facebook got alot of pics, by Shuqi and Michelle. Dunno whether Keith got onot. Thanks to them :)

I also made alot fo friends with Bukit Panjang and St. Margarets :)

AND HOR, THERES THIS GUY IN BPGHS CALLED JESHREI. His name dam cool rite? At first his name was alr cool enuf, like some Japanese name. But when he told me the meaning of his name, it was like SO COOL TO THE MAX.

JESHREI -- JEsus SHall REIgn.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. DAM NICE!!! :D

...

Get to know more NAS ppl well oso :)

And also during this trip, i got a little closer to God, although i didnt read that book -.- Cuz in the NAS grp got 4 Christians: Me, Joel, Clement and Shuqi. Then we like always remind each other to say grace all these. And we use the com to play Hillsong, Planetshakers :)

Oso during the trip, got one time i SHIT until the toilet bowl clog. LOLLOL. I shit so much until cannot flush, then stuck. Then after room service can le LOL.

Added like 20 more new ppl on Msn. :):) DIdnt add Xinmin, cuz we feel that the student and their teachers are like TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT. And btw, BPGHS got alot of Liverpool fans!!! :D

LOL blogged alot leh. Not bad. Looks like my blogging skills are back -.-

These 2 weeks are just like a dream. OH MAN. I was like praying to Gid saying i can faster go back Singapore. Now i totally regretted it. Homework. Stress. Exams. All come back the moment i reached Singapore.

Nvm, i have to take one step at a time. Although i have not started on my hw -.-

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

ALL I NEED IS TIME...

2009-11-27T14:40:00.003+08:00

ALL I NEED IS TIME...

OoOoOo... back in sg :)

Had alot of fun in China... I think i miss alot of things in China LOL.

1stly, the students in Hebei school. Alot of people wanted to take photos with me LOL. They actually took alot of pics with the the Ngee Ann people la, and Joel took alot with them. But most of them who took with me is becuz im cute -.-

Then in the hotel, people asked me to be a lightbulb. Want me take my bible and 'preach' to the 'couple'. People ASKED ME TO DO THAT. Then people misunderstood me as i like someone. LOL WTH?
Nvm, but very fun to think of it...

Played with snow. Many people got frostbites. The weather actually not very cold. Only it's cold when it is windy, especially at the Great Wall.

Actually i missed the the singapore students in China. Ngee Ann, St Margarets, Bukit Panjang and Xinmin. Made alot of new friends from Ngee Ann and St. Margarets. Bukit Panjang too, but not Xinmin. They are like super noisy, and their teachers are the worse i've ever seen.
Nvm...

I dunno what to say leh... got so many things to say.

Have not blogged for the past few days cuz the hotel com cant go... In china cant go youtube, facebook, sometimes blogspots and wordpresses. But i missed that com LOL.

It's great to be back in Singapore, will be even better if there are no homework to do... Heard there's exam in week 1? ZZ

I miss my cell and church... Heard natalia is back. Nvr see her be4. When i joined she alr left. So seeing her would be great.

I feel like cutting my hair, but i will look weird again. AA

LOL i think too much thing to say until nth to say le. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD...

2009-11-23T20:31:00.003+08:00

HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD...

When you're reading this, just press the 'Home' button on the keyboard.

Those who did cant see this post, cuz im not at home.

-.- Nvm... im being lame.

Time really flies. There's only about 3 days left to be back in Singapore. WOOHOO.
And i tot that 2 weeks it's like impossible to end when you're overseas. Why when i went to Hong Kong last year, i felt like it's sooo long, when it's only 5 days?

Nvm, i think im having a great time here. Well, some good some bad. But i've learnt to let go all the bad ones and remember all the good ones :)

My title is my wishes to Cynthia. It's her birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA!!! LOL i dunno wish you how many times le Cynthia...

Must learn to be optimistic... I tot it would be paradise once i return back to Singapore, but then there's a pile of holiday homework for me to do. I didn't do any home work at all... I should do them during EP la, so wasted :(

Now i have to chiong alr. SIAN. Still got Chinese book. Dun even feel like reading.

But, must be optimistic :) I think i plan to do 2 hours of homework every weekday, then slack and play for the rest of the day. Then at night, read Chinese book. I guess Bible and my birthday present (book) can wait. :)
Fun but also accomplished :) Love this life God has given me :)

I love my China class' Politics teacher :) She so kind. She share with us the history of a place in China, called 西柏坡. But, i just can't stop closing my eyes thruout. Not in Politics la, but in other lessons, even Maths -.- Somemore Mr Heng and Chen lao shi attended the Maths lesson tgt, and i cant stop sleeping. ZZ.

But then, the snow at the street soccer court cleard alr, then can play soccer! :):)
I lost touch of soccer alr, but i still managed to stay in the game. FUN FUN.

Tml my last day going to the school. Giving my buddy one childish pencil box :X

Hope he remembers me :)

Im going his house tml to eat dinner only. Then i told him i not staying at his house. I dunno wad's his feelings leh. When i told him, i tried to look at his facial expression, but i still dunno what is he thinking. AAA

I tuned a guitar today :) For the performance. Joel is playing the guitar, while the rest will sing 'Home'. By Kit Chan one. SIAN... I want play the guitar... nvm. :( OR :)

I want go back SINGAPORE! Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

IM GOING HOME...

2009-11-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

IM GOING HOME...

The day started off with eugene having diarhoea... Then he cant go out with us. But now he's ok alr... Ok with the diarhoea, not ok with personal problems... Haiz.

Finally, we only attended 2 periods of lessons. I 4got to say 加油 to my buddy!!! AAA!!! Cuz his exam is during the weekends, which is tml and the day after. SHIT SIAN.

We only attended 2 periods cuz the vice-principal there noe that we attend lessons very tired. So they let us play with snow. The table tennis court in the school there is full of snow, so we can play there. Play until 1hour plus. Fun! :)
I headshot alot of ppl... Not bad... But i oso got kena hit by ppl, then i got frostbite. Super pain.

We made some snowman that has 3 circles LOL. Like 冰糖葫芦 like that... If dunno then nvm. But anw we do until dam epic fail oso, so we took the big ball and throw it at other ppl.

Joel dam popular in school la. Got one gal actually gave him her handphone so that joel can take photos of himself -.- This was yesterday. But teacher told him to return the handphone straightaway. LOL. He also received alot of love letters from her... DESPO.

Lunch was at the same place as usual... Then we went to shopping centre. I dunno wad to buy so i was bored. Leg aching. Cant buy any good clothes cuz it's not the time for me to buy. Haven fully grown yet. But i bet dun have my size oso.

So when we came back hotel, we saw Eugene. Mr Heng accompanied him in the hotel the whole day. He just had a 5 HOURS counselling by Mr Heng, and today he spent the whole day with him LOL.

Heard got conflicts between friends. But with the grace of God, conflict solved :) A MIRACLE! XD

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

HOME SWEET HOME

2009-11-19T21:25:00.004+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME

It's only starting for them, wth?
Im like, already halfway of it?
And also some, didnt even start?

I really need to go home now...

Today, went to school. Closed my eyes for a longer period of time today.

Went eat lunch, then went back to school for some 'competition among us'. The boys are one grp, and the other 2 grps consists of some gals and some Chinese students.

We are supposed to use paper, poker cards, scotchtape, double-sided tape, scissors and also pool balls, to make the tallest structure. So, the height of structure + the number of pool balls determines the points. I noe i say until so detailed all these la, but is quite boring actually... We were the 1st to make one very tall building, which is 40 something cm. A few minutes later, the 3rd grp made 80 something cm. We then continue with ours and had 102cm. After this, everyone slack alr. Like 1 hour later or sth, the 2nd grp made 120cm, and 3rd grp made 140cm. So we're last. But who cares. Is like the gals so enthu, then when our structure drop or sth, they laugh at us. We oso got laugh back at them la. But win for wad anyway? So at the end they won that time then the boys say 'aiya let u win la let u win la'. Then their mood like suddenly changed. LOL. It's like they asking themselves, 'win for wad?' oso. LOL lame.

After that go back hotel rest, then go eat dinner. Come back supposed to have meeting, the 'someone' have to go 'counselling' by Mr Heng. That 'someone' and another 'someone' had 'something wrong'. Then got something to do with 'mom'. Then 'quarrels'. Cant say everything. I can just say that the mom super @$%^@#$%%

We have to sing 'Home' during the performance. Not the Daughtry one, sadly :( It's the Kit Chan one, and need sing in Chinese and English. Sian zz wadeva.

Wa dam sian seriously. The nights are getting boring and boring each day.

There is not only one country on Earth, so LIVE WITH IT.

Stupid ***** ****. Why *** *****? But anyway it's ** *****, as usual. Every ****** that i have is always ** *****.

Stressing with happiness... Cool.

Bye.
That's All.
You'll Never Walk Alone.

GO HOME NOW PLEASE

2009-11-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

GO HOME NOW PLEASE

Dam pissed off. Not really angry, but more of sad. Tears?

But wait, talk about the good things 1st...

Went to their school today. Attended English, Physics, Chemistry, Social Studies. Forgot alr. Got alot of periods cuz we attended their 1st period onwards till 12pm.

My buddy seemed cold to me... But i dun mind. I noe i very bad, but i dun bother to make very good friends. Later at airport cant bear to go or wad worse. I think his feelings is like how i feel when the other buddy came to Ngee Ann.

During English, teacher told me and Yuyun to read a passage. Yuyun read first. Unexpectedly, the teacher want us to translate it to Chinese. Cool. Yuyun and I did ok... I tried to change the sentence structure from English to Chinese, and the teacher say i very 'clever' -.-

I almost slept during Physics and Chemistry, although the Chem teacher is like their 'Ms Tia'. I slept at 1.30 ytd, so very sleepy. Physics they learning about pressure and Chem about charges. One element got different charges, like +1, +4, +5, +7. Very weird.

Went to eat at 12. I have to sit at the girl's van cuz im small enough, and the boys sit in a teacher's car. Im dunno how to express my feelings. Argh. Forget it. Just think about how i feel.

Ate an assumptous meal there. Tried every single dish.

After that, we went to see the other zones of the school. Then we went back to the main one and saw our old buddies. He gave me a present. Everyone then played some boliao games, like some psychological games like that. Also about teamwork and leadership. I got tired of these activities alr. I dun wan to be a leader. Im antisocial, not initiative, and very very shy. I cant be a leader actually. Ok nvm... Leave all the bad things to the back.

So after that went back to hotel. Went 365-24 (their 7-11). Actually supposed to go there to find prepaid card for some people, then in the end dun have. So, the rest bought chewing gum, sausages, and also some egg, in chinese called cha ye dan. I dunno what is it called in english.

Ate dinner. Then back to hotel room. Then, 2 bad things happened. One is concerning life-death that kind of bad, the other is conflict and quarrels that kind of bad.
All not concerning about me. But there's something about these things. I feel really out of place.

I really hope i really can manage all these, and also hope that these trials and tribulations are only temporary. It's been tough enough for me to stay in an unknown place for 2 weeks. And i love my home so much. I have homesick every single second.
Now, it's just everything. Everything im going thru now have something to do with stress, dislikes, sufferings, God-dependent. Nothing is relaxing in this world. The world so competitive. And my heart has the feeling like, i want to be saint, i dun wan anyone to hate me, if i do this, people will think something bad about me, if i dun do this, nothing will happen, it's the best. But in the end, what happen?

I edited some stuff 2 paragraphs ago. Didn't want people to know some things. See, 'if i do this, people will think something bad about me.' So i deleted them. See, my character really sux.

From all these things, i dunno wad advice to give. I cant do anything to solve these problems, so wad advice can i give? Maybe my only advice is, dun folo my character, and do the things u like. Dun care about what other people think of you. That's my biggest flaw. Received insults and i want to do something to make them stop. But i shld just heck care them.

One thing to say to everyone: IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK I AM. EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT PHYSICAL THAT EVERYBODY SAID ABOUT ME, ALL ARE NOT TRUE.

That's all. You'll never walk alone.

I WANT HOME!

2009-11-17T23:33:00.002+08:00

I WANT HOME!

Still in cheena. AAA...

Yesterday(mon), went to Hebei school. Saw my new buddy (they changed)and attended their lessons. We received a very warm welcome from them. Im in the same class as Yuyun and the rest are all different classes. We are the only ones that have 2 in 1 class. Hengzxzxz -.-".

When doing a self introduction in my class, they want me to say english. So, i said i like sports and im not bad in my studies. Then when one guy translated it to Chinese, it became im lousy in my studies. ZZ. Dun bother to correct him oso.

I attended English, Mathematics and also China's 'Social Studies'.

English. Got 2 periods. LOL so easy (duh). Some of the model sentences are like wrong. So sian. I almost feel asleep LOL. But my eyes are closed half of the time. Then got alot of people see i think.

Maths, about circles. Quite an interesting topic. It's different from our circles. It's like they give u 3 or 4 dots and ask u to join them up to form a circle. Must use compass and ruler all these stuff. Cool.

Social Studies. They call it 政治. The chapter is about how to prosper and catch up with other countries. Then the main factors are education and technology. LOL.

After these lessons, which was about 12pm, we gather tgt and took a bus to eat at restaurant. Next, we went to one place called 空中花园. At first, we tot is a garden at the top of the building or sth. Cuz it's 'Garden in mid-ar' LOL.

Then when we get down the coach, it was freezing, and we have to walk quite far to a building. When we reached there, it's not! YAY. It's like a greenhouse, quite hot there. It's like a theme park there. Got games to play there, and there's also a 3D cinema there.

Dam epic fail. The whole 'movie' (20min only) is about travelling to random places. Then got insects or animals come out from the screen and 'bite' you-.- The worst movie i've ever seen.

Go back hotel eat dinner. Nothing else.

Today, the lessons were Chinese. Mathematics, Chemistry and Physics. I was so tired during Physics that my head keep dropping and my eyes like half-open. So paiseh. Chinese is like Literature. Read book then must understand the feelings all those things. Mathematics and Chemistry dam cool. Then their Chemistry very simple. They now still learning charges of atoms. But their names of compounds and elements dam cheem. Like acids are called 酸根. Still got many other things la.

Went eat lunch, then go museum. Which is so boring. Then went shopping mall. Many gals went to shop on their own and teacher cannot contact them. Chen lao shi cried (AWW). Just now meeting in hotel they kena scolded and need write a sorry letter. Must la, the guys wait for them for 45mins in the shopping mall leh LOL.

Ok, bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

HOME HOME HOME!!!

2009-11-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

HOME HOME HOME!!!

It's great to blog again!

In china now... LOL. Hate the weather here, although i can take it...

Tell u some drama. At Thurs nite when we are supposed to take off, we alr checked in our luggage, got the boarding pass le.

THEN. SUDDENLY, the teachers want the parents to gather tgt to talk. Talk for like 5 mins. Then all the parents like sian sian. Then when the teachers come talk to us, they told us that latest news, Hebei got a very big snow storm, and a school collapsed and 3 students died. WA.

THEN. They said the trip had to be cancelled. During that time, i dunno whether to be happy or sad. SERIOUSLY. I so bad la i didnt feel sad then everyone ard me crying or emoing. So i have abit of half half feelings.

Then, the principal and vice-principal came(at midnight LOL) to the airport. Then Mr Lim said that it was safe to go Beijing, so trip not cancelled. Then, everyone is like YAY YAY, then im like OH MAN. YAY. OH MAN. Half half feelings la...

Ok then we went into the departure and waved goodbye. Then i dunno somehow lost my watch, when im wearing it. Just suddenly gone.sian.

On the plane, showed Harry Potter and Half-Blood Prince. Cant manage to watch everything cuz have motion sickness. Then played Mario Bros. and Kirby Land. Same thing, cant play after awhile. Breakfast (at 4am) came, and i only ate half of the chicken noodles, while everyone ate finish. Hate plane flights.. SQ leh, then cant enjoy the facilities.

So after we touch down took our luggages, then experienced the cold for the 1st time. They said Beijing snowed the previous day, and on fri, the weather is bright and less cold. So i quite happy la, although its not snowing. Went to hotel after that. Hotel called Qiang Qiang (cockroach) Hotel. LOLLOL. But the room quite nice. Shared with Joel. The tall basketball one. Ok la. Played Truth or Dare at night. Got alot of lame stuff.

Next day, we went to Great Wall. It was super super cold, less than -10 degrees, cuz altitude high, and also super windy. Dam cham. Climbing the great wall like climbing mountain seriously. Super steep. And its likea steep slope, not stairs. So our feet must grip firmly or else we will just fall down. Only Mr Heng, Eugene, Cherie, Seok Pheng and I climbed alot. The rest went to some coffee shop to get warmth and slack. After that, went Bird's Nest and Watercube. SUPER SUPER COLD. Dun even feel like going sightseeing, just want to go back coach to get warmth.
Actually these stuff supposed to be on 26Nov, but because of the Hebei snowstorm then is on sat... Sad.

At night, watched Russia vs Slovenia. Suddenly Keith, Clement, Shuqi and Yuyun came to me and Joel's room to party. Everyone almost slept in the same room. Luckly Shuqi and Yuyun have to go back to pack their luggage. So in our room got 4 ppl. Slept at 2am.

Woke at 6. Ate breakfast, took coach to Hebei. 5 hours. Very hard to sleep. Spam songs with my hp. Mostly Daughtry LOL. I love the song 'Home' man. As what the title says...

Reached. The snow is like pile up until knee cap. Although on that day it's just like the weather in Beijing. Due to the snowstorm la.

Went to the Hotel. Cant rmb the hotel name. Shared room with Eugene. But then got burglars!!!

AAA!!! Lucky never kena. It's like Xinmin Sec got a few rooms kena. A few of us saw the burglars, cuz they entered Joel, Keith and Clement's room. 2 ppl dressed as cleaners. Lucky Joel came back into the room in time. Then the burglars like acting to do room service and left. That time we still dunno they are burglars. Cuz we just know at night.

Anyway, the hotel just sucked, although the hotel room got computer :)
Ok that aside, the food suck! It's like pig liver, they mix it tgt until it looks like pieces of chocolate cake. Then got the intestines too. Btw, the previous lunches and dinners in Beijing SO MANY VEGETABLES! Like 6-8 dishes of veg. SIAO.

Then we came back at night, then we made frens with Bukit Panjang ppl. Cool.
Btw, my room is like super at the end. And the rest is like middle, near the lobby, dam sian. Shuqi always get freaked out by her room, cuz the door always can open although it is locked. It happened thrice. LOL. Then shuqi went to sleep with chen lao shi, then cherie and yuyun sleep in that room. My room super outcasted, and scary o.0

So teacher dun allow us to party alr, tell us go back room sleep. But i left the com on, so i msn-ed ppl and now im blogging. 1 hour passed the 'lights out' alr. Eugene sleeping alr. Keyboard like sht one.

Sian... i wan blog everyday, dunno can onot. See how. Tell u more next time. Seeing my buddy tml. LOL. sian. wadeva. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

FEELS LIKE TONIGHT...

2009-11-12T16:00:00.006+08:00

FEELS LIKE TONIGHT...

Btw, edited my profile a little. The underline part.

Tonight is the night... Flying off to China.

HIGHEST temperature there: -2 degrees

OMG>>> I cant even take 18degrees, now highest -2? I wonder what is the lowest temperature there man...

I now having alittle flu. Everything comes at the wrong time. I think this period is the coldest time of the year. AAA. I dun have enough winter clothes somemore. AAA. Maybe wearing 10clothing inside. I will look dam fat. But who cares. AAA.

I might not be able to adapt to the temperature and fall sick there. Cuz i have sinus, and it's every morning regardless of temperature. I really pray im not gonna fall sick there... I want to SWEAT there. SWEAT OUT ICE LOL.

But there's snow. 1st time in my 15 years i am seeing snow. Suaku... But i dun want to see snow. Not now for the time being. I want a super hot weather. I wonder how the rest of the people can adapt sia...

AA sht why am i still typing this. About me complaining here...

Ok about yesterday... Me and a few people were 'late' for Chem SPA cuz of my briefing. Surprisingly, teacher not there yet. So we were supposed to do some experiments. Someparts quite funny, like i took litmus paper instead of magnesium. LOL. Epic fail.

So we were laughing throughout, and we were only left 5 minutes to do 5 tests for gas. Then me and Geng Hao chionged like crazy, like 1 experiment per minute. LOL. Like add this add that. Turn on Bunsen Burner. Heat test tube. SMELL! SMELL! YES GOT SMELL OK DONE. So we managed to finish.

So after went cycling. With Geng Hao, Huiyen, Rashid, Yiren, Jasper, Siying, Shan Xuan, Junjie. Any more else? Forgot le. So put our bags at Jasper's house. We took a long time finding his house too.

So went to rental shop. Some took solo bikes and some took tandem bikes. I wanted a tandem bike cuz i never try be4. Never hear be4 heavier one sit in front. So i was never in front, and like it feels weird when Huiyen was in front riding the bike. Then i also sat with Junjie and Yiren. Cycled with solo bike too.

Had quite a fun day. Then my mom mildly scolded me for coming back so late. Anyway bath finish then watched Singapore Idol. When Duane was performing, at first he was playing the piano and singing. Still ok. When the music became fast and he stopped playing the piano and stood up. I'm like, "Oh DIE DIE". So bad la. But really not good. He should just sit at the piano there for the whole song.

Anyway, the results show at 10, and Duane was out. Felt very guily for saying so many bad things about him in the past. But, i think this is really the Top 5. All 5 of them are good. Jia you guys, although i will miss 2 Wednesdays. Cant wait to find out who out.

My mom is even more nervous than me about the China trip. Got so many things in my luggage and i doubt i will use all of them. But one thing i must use all is my clothes. Scully when i go out, my whole luggage no clothes. Because i wore all of them. LOL.

Cant imagine how am i supposed to bathe there. So cold.

Ok enough!!! Today.

Had breakfast with cell at Mac. Cell E290 rox! I want to go cell and church... AAA.

Bio SPA for the 1st lesson. Did skill 3 again.

A Maths. Finished Chapter 13. Did not do the last qn of 13.4 cuz i dunno how do. LOL then when lesson ended, i teached Rashid how do that qn. LOL.

Ate at Mac(again?). Good what actually, cuz can build up fats. Acts as insulator of heat LOL. But the problem is i dun wan to be fat. Aiya wadeva.

Then it rained. Got wet. Then i heard about Geng Hao's grp the 爱2. Dam funny man. Was like laughing in the rain then i suddenly tripped over something. Even more funny. Then Geng Hao asked me look behind. Yiren wanted to jaywalk. Rashid dun wan. So is like Yiren dragging Rashid along to the road then rashid rejected and ran to the traffic light. Yiren was then screaming all the way while jaywalking. Super funny now. Then, we saw Liting, Michelle Tay and Yee Ting walking(or running) from Tmart to school. Liting was like using her hands as umbrella and chionged to the school gate. Then, suddenly the rubbish truck drove out of the gate. Liting was in front, so she like stopped there. Then all 3 of them kena the rain and have to wait for the truck to move. SUPER FUNNY.

Then i went under the tree while waiting for the traffic light. Dam pathetic. Luckily dun have flu. Maybe mild flu from sinus. LOL DAM EPIC sia, if u see every single thing that i've mentioned, it will be super comical. Brightens my day! Although sky so dark -.-

Physics SPA. Me and Geng Hao screwed up everything. So we copied Winifred's and Edenuis's readings.

I realised that my papers are always wet when doing SPAs. FAIL

Then i chionged tidying up my Phy SPA file. Missing worksheets but i dun care.

Now at home, using the computer for the last time be4 going to China.

Songs that reminded me of the time:

You'll Never Walk Alone - 2005
In The Shadows/Girlfriend - 2007
Can You Hear Me? - June 2008
Love Story/Life Would Suck Without You/Battlefield - June 2009
Beat It/Billie Jean/AYG song - July 2009
半情歌 - August to September 2009
No Surprise - End of October - November 2009
Thunder/EVERY DAUGHTRY SONG - November 2009

My last blog post in 2 weeks alr... I sound like im migrating to China or im leaving the world (touch wood)... But thats how HOMESICK i am. Getting homesick even be4 going to China. That's the worst thing that might happen to you.

But thanks Kristine for giving me tips of battling the cold weather :):)Thanks Cynthia for always talking to me :):)
Went Hong Kong last year, and i was homesick on the 1st night. COOL.

Life is full of surprises, so its NO SURPRISE that i might blog or tag, or go msn. LOL. But just in case...

21 November: BON VOYAGE TO JASPER, KRISTINE, SIYING, EDENUIS, LITING, SHAN XUAN, and somemore people that i may have forgotten, FOR THEIR AUSTRALIA TRIP!!!

23 November: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA!!! HOPE YOU GROW TALL!!!

25 November: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUL!!!

~THAT'S ALL FOLKS. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.~

Goodbye people.... Goodbye Singapore....

LOL wadeva... EPIC FAIL XD

ok bye

One down, hundred to go...

2009-11-10T15:28:00.002+08:00

One down, hundred to go...

Level 1: O'Lvl Chinese (10Nov)
Level 100: China trip (12Nov - 27Nov)

AAA. Seriously too long la. If i know the duration then i dun join le. LOL. Nvm. Experience la.

But i hate cold weather. AAA. Later i freeze to death in my sleep. AAA. No la wont.

Today O'Lvl Chinese. DIE!!! AAA.

When doing paper 1 the essay part, my causes and solutions all KNS. Maybe FAIL.
Then letter hor, my suggestions got 3 la. Then the 3 paragraphs add up to less than 1 page. AAA.

Paper 2. At first i tot it was ok, compre hard. Then when finish everyone discuss, then so many wrong! AAA.

Distinction flew away alr... Nvm :)

Want go out before Thurs leh... AAA. i wan to time travel to 27Nov.

I got this feeling that im migrating to China like that... Sian. Hope i have a good and 'memorable' experience there...

Sian. Liverpool draw 2-2 with Birmingham. Ngog dived to get a penalty. So unsportsman. SIAN.

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

STILL NOT PANICKING?!?!

2009-11-09T17:47:00.003+08:00

STILL NOT PANICKING?!?!

I just dunno why... Tml is already the O'lvl Chinese paper. Maybe im over-confident? Or i just heck care about it? Teacher really shouldn't tell us that even if we didnt get A can continue stay HCL. Im feeling complacent. But i also hope i can get A la... OMG this sux. I just want end tml quickly and make sure it will be an HAPPY ending. Like able to do the paper, then when finish the paper very happy that kind of thing.

It's a long way now
From where I used to rest my head
It's safe and sound
If only I could turn around
There's no direction where I stand
Just dead end signs and wasted land.
It's a long way now
To you...

Daughtry has 6 bonus songs. And all very nice :)
Lyrics super meaningful too!

Tml is the day tml is the day tml is the day tml is the day tml is the day tml is the day...

So what? XD

Ok nvm... I later practice abit more can already.

My 综合填空 is suuuper weak.... I got 4/10 for the Sec 3 Express Chinese section! AAA

Wore the Nike shoe to school today... Received many suans. Think i wearing my old shoe tml...

Ok school today... Bio SPA. Skill set 3. Must learn how to write experiments of your own. This sux.

Recess. Nothing.

Physics. No physics teacher came. We spent half an hour in the lab, then went back class. Mr Lee Chin Teck then came to our class to give us worksheets to do. But i didnt do, i was doing chinese, although distracted.

Even Geng Hao's Tamil is so nice LOL. ZZ

Mother Tongue. Go through mock paper 2 which i got 49/70. ZZ just barely A2.

School over. Want to stay back school to practice chinese. But i want eat first. Drag Geng Hao along. Yiren dun wan come. 2 ppl at Kopitiam. I eating, he's drinking. But at least it's not really queit. Talked alot.

Come back to school. Yiren left soon. Rashid ended class. So we 3 studying. Listening to Daughtry songs when doing. Think my Chinese improved. Yay. Boo?

When coming back, Su Ern was in the same bus as me, and i didn't know. She was my Primary 6 friend. Very outgoing person.

So when we get down the bus tgt then i know. So we talked. Now like still very familiar with each other like that. She outgoing ma. She oso have O'lvl Chinese tml, then she dam nervous. But im not. LOL. She stay opposite condo, so say bye bye to each other, even though we are in the middle of a conversation. LOL.

I will be rather unfair if a miracle happened on me tml... Cuz im not as hardworking as anyone else. So i'll give the miracles to the rest of the Higher Mother Tongue people instead.

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR O'LVLS GUYS :D
YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!

23 MINUTES IN HELL

2009-11-08T11:00:00.003+08:00

23 MINUTES IN HELL

This guy called Bill Wiese went to hell for 23 minutes. It's a true story. REALLY TRUE. Didnt put the website cuz it's not appropriate for non-christians. Cuz non-christians shouldn't accept Christ out of fear after seeing this, but we have to accept Christ by love.

But if u guys want see can always go search engines and search...

I sort of become emo after this, but i feel more on fire for God. Judgement Day is coming soon... Very very soon.

I really want preach the gospel, so more people can be saved, but i just dunno how.

Yesterday watched Momo Love. The story is getting more exciting alr. I think that channel U cut out some parts, that's why the story like jump here jump there.

Then after that used the com. My family have 2 coms, one is vista, another XP. Vista is much better. At first i using vista, but then after my bro finish bathing he say he need use vista. For project -.-

So i just give in lor. So i used the XP one, and the internet is so slow. But i just continue using. So after 30mins or so, all i see my bro was doing was msn, facebook, youtube, nokia music -.-

I then msn-ed him, 'wow nice project'. LOL. Msning to one another even if he is beside me is fun. Sometimes we msn like that to share secrets that didnt want our mom to know, or some random things. But thats very rare. LOL but still fun.

Then when he going to off the com, he then just printed out his project work which has already completed be4. So his doing project is just to print? LOL.

Played bowling using the XP. Which my bowling balls and credits are not there. Lagging when playing. But got my 2nd time getting 200. Geng Hao got 207 but never save LOL. So his high score still 185 only.

Then i go dl daughtry songs. He got so many bonus songs in the album 'Leave This Town'. Feel like buying the album, but abit outdated le LOL.

WOOOWOOO~

Just for laughs:

Watch till the end. The snake so scared of the rabbit until it climbed up the tree LOL. Super funny.

Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

YAY A MIRACLE!

2009-11-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

YAY A MIRACLE!

Today i went out with my mom to buy shoes. At first, i tot is buy my own shoes. But then, actually my mom want me buy shoes for the trip to China -.- She say my adidas shoe the sole not thick, then need buy one for the cold. ZZ.

So go to World Of Sports see here see there. At first want. Then suddenly dun wan. See about 2-3 shoes, then my mom pissed.

Went to Nike store. Saw one pair of running shoes. Tried to put on the shoe. Then when going to buy alr, then my mom say see if World Of Sport have anot, cuz got 50% sale. -.- . Go there, have. Cheaper $30. So we like make some excuses to the Nike store helper, then go World Of Sport.

Go there, only the black and lime green one have my size. The other colours were blue and red. So, the World Of Sport have the shoe, cheaper by $30, but the only thing is the colour. And i dun like the colour. So, im in a dilemma at that time. Think for about 10mins, then decided to buy from the Nike store. Although more ex, but i rather have a colour i like, then next time after China trip i will wear more often. Mom super pissed.

Spent about 1hour just like that. Finally, bought a size 9 (so big) blue Nike Pegasus running shoe that costs $30 more expensive than the same type with another colour. Can explain why mom so pissed.

Went home, very tired. But can't rest, cuz my mom ask me pack luggage -.- Packing, then realised that i dun have long sleeve shirts. I heck care. Mom pissed again. Then i become pissed.

It feels like going there is a torture. I take back my words about going there as a 'holiday'. This really sucks. Why can't i go some hotter place? Anyway, hot weather rocks. AA forget it...

After packing, left 1 hour be4 leaving for church. Mom left house to go somewhere. Pretended to sleep until she ledt the house, cuz i want on the com. But after she left, i couldn't get out of bed, and i slept for 1 hour. SIAN.

Chionged to church. Xinyi came. Although she has parent objection. Jia you Xin yi :)

Sermon by Rev. Pst. Robb Thompson. Sometimes couldn't understand what he was saying. But his life is a real true testimont. He went to a mental institute be4, and his family was very poor. But now, he has organisations and companies of his own. Through the grace of God :)
During one night at the mental institute, he saw God. That's really wonderful man... I want too :)

Talking about the miracle now... So after church, the cell grp gather somewhere in the church. Then is like 1st, we prayed for Xinyi so that her parents will slowly accept her as a Christian those kind of thing. So, i thought it was over alr. Then A MIRACLE CAME. Suddenly they say want celebrate a person's birthday before that person goes overseas. Then i was like still thinking who was it. LOL. Cuz my birthday is 19 days away... And it was really a surprise. So, they gave me a cardboard with the cell people's wishes, and also a Christian book and a keychain.

THANKS SO MUCH AILIN, HUIYEN, YIREN, GENGHAO, TAYXI, TAYBIN, ESTHER, JEREMY, AARON and XINYI :):)

I think this is one of the best presents that i've got in my life. So feel honoured guys :)
The cardboard has Gerrard and Torres's pics on it :) Thanks Huiyen :)

What a wonderful miracle :) I think i will upload the pictures of the presents tml.

Still cant get over it LOL. And i can't find a place to put the cardboard AAA.

Miracle really makes people's day :D
Ok bye. :D

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Miracles...

2009-11-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

Miracles...

Benitez in need of another "miracle" to get through
Liverpool boss Rafael Benitez has admitted his side now needs a "miracle" to qualify for the last 16 of the Champions League...

See, Benitez wants miracles too, and so do I... See the fated connection between me and Liverpool? LOL jk.

Miracles carve your path in the way you want. The most important thing is, ALL MIRACLES ARE MADE BY GOD FOR YOU. See what God has done for us?
If u want miracles, u have to trust God. Cuz he loves us equally, regardless of Christian or non-Christian, strong or weak Christian. This is the beauty of God.

Today during cell, Ailin prayed for me, and she said i will be a pastor... Do i have all it takes to be a pastor? Or in the first place do i want to be a pastor? These questions keep appearing in my head. Im not so sure about this...

Today didn't cry during cell, cuz the atmosphere tonight was very jolly. Like a lot of people do alot of silly things that make us laugh a lot. LOL. So is like, distracted.

I think when we encounter many problems right, then we just have to trust and believe God will help you solve these problems. maybe for example, friend problems. Just trust in God, and the problems will automatically be solved. Is just some small MIRACLE that change everything. Thats how strong MIRACLES ARE.

Trust, and believe :)

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

THUNDER

2009-11-06T17:14:00.002+08:00

THUNDER

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,
Do you know you're unlike any other,
Youll always be my thunder, and I said,
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors,
I dont wanna ever love another,
Youll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain,
And bring on the thunder...

ZZ im so lag.

School started with me rushing to the quadrangle to take the pledge. I think this is the 1st time taking the pledge in the quadrangle, cuz im either late, or im preparing
something in class. So i was running to my class. Then when it was time to take the pledge, i couldn't hear anything. LOL. Then i say my own until half way then no more le -.-

Then is bio SPA. Practicing plotting graphs. And also got back one homework where we need to draw leaves. LOL.

Recess............... -.-

Physics SPA. Did a SPA by doing a whole lot of chunk, just to get the density of the plasticine. Interesting...

Ended early. Went buy some muffin at canteen. Went to HCL. Did si han (informal letter).

LOL. All these lessons took 6 hours. 2 hours each. And from on top, looks like its some 1hr lessons. LOL.

So... Boring school life. I think im actually anticpating the China trip now. It's now like sort of a 'holiday' when going there. Or is that the real purpose of it? LOL.

Going out on sunday with the China group to CHINAtown (LOL) to buy gift for them. That time they came, they gaft us some cheap(skate) stuff. LOL i just stuffed it somewhere in my drawer then never see it again. I dun think it's even a gift. Ok nvm... At least now the gift we are buying cost about $3. HA PWN them :D Ok being idiotic again...

Got guitar and... CELL later!!! I think i love night outings. How i wish i can watch midnight horror movies... Dam fun :)

I wan cry like sht during cell again :) Doing that for 2 times alr...'

Spamming Daughtry songs into my phone be4 going to China trip :) I wan more songs leh..

Ok i got reminded of the O'lvls Chinese again... AAA i need improve alot be4 taking the exam. My standard now is ard B3 - B4...

Yay God will be with me today and tml... WOOHOO!

Thinking of bringing bible to China... or maybe my notebook to read. AAA i scared of cold weather. NEGATIVE degrees. Can't take it.

I think i repeating alot of stuff. Nvm. I can't run today cuz guitar at 7. ZZ. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Supernatural...

2009-11-05T16:03:00.002+08:00

Supernatural...

But now it's too late
It's taking over me
I feel so supernatural
And the farther you're away
Is more than I can take
And I'm losing all of everything
And no matter how I try
You know I can't deny
'Cause you feel so supernatural...

Didn't know my face look so gloomy until the end of HCL lesson. I mean, i didn't know i look so emo and everyone is like saying i am sad or something, but actually im not. Then when i go toilet after HCL lesson, i saw my emo face, and i was OMG. I think is due to lack of sleep ytd... So paiseh.

Singapore idol ytd, and Mae was out. Duane simply shattered people's dreams. Ken Lim said Singapore needs someone who can represent the country on an international platform... Duane can meh? He shattered dreams like how Lyon shattered Liverpool's...

Liverpool drew with Lyon ytd night. Lyon scored a late 90th min equaliser which shattered Liverpool's dream. I woke up to watch ytd. Liverpool missed so many chances! Then, babel scored. YAY. Quite nice goal too. Then Lyon suddenly and randomly scored. What the fish?

Before the match, Lyon's players said that they want to knock Liverpool out of the Champions League. Lyon is Lyon, and there is no need to win just to make other teams go down. The main point of winning is to let ur team get thru to the next round, not like cursing other teams like that... ARGHH

It would take A MIRACLE. Yes, ANOTHER MIRACLE, to get Liverpool to the next round. I won't be surprised if Lyon allowed Florentina to win. IM SUPER DESPO FOR MIRACLES RIGHT NOW...

I need another miracle to motivate myself to practice Chinese. I dunno what the heck is wrong with me. I know im scared of getting a B for Chinese, but i dun make an effort to do well. I really want to knock my head on the wall. Today, many people stayed back to study. And i went home. I seriously dunno how spell die man...
GOD!!! I NEED YOU!!! I want Nobody Nobody but you... -.-''
Im actually singing that for a performance when i go to China. DIAO.

A

MIRALCE
IS
REVOLVING
AROUND
CHRISTON,
LIVERPOOL and
EVERYONE ELSE!

Can see anything? I hope it really revolves around everyone man...

I can say that, Liverpool's results are directly proportional to my mood.
But im not sure if they are inversely proportional to my exam results (O'lvl Chinese)... I can say that it is NO WAY, unless i start now.

Miracles dun happen on 10 November, Miracles happen NOW.

4.3km in 25min. My bro less than 22min sia SHT. 23:49 my high score. I want to run everyday, but everytime either got something on, OR ITS RAINING. LIKE TODAY.

Had a pimple for 3 weeks. Becoming smaller alr.

100 sit ups in 104 secs!! SHT!!

Did a Chinese paper 2 mock exam today, and it was rather hard. Cher say is from other school. There's this compre passage which makes me feel very guilty.

“为自己高兴”就是满足现状，不思进取。那是人生中最扎实最醇美的快乐！
不要为自己立下高不可及的标杆，更不要因别人好意的刺激而陷入自卑自怨自责自苦的泥潭！

AAA. Talking about me. 高不可及的标杆... I want to grow tall so much that i dun live happily. SHT SHT SHT.
Let nature takes its course la...

Today got Physics SPA, then its like we doing this pendulum bob thing, and whenever i ask Winifred question hor, she all dun wan answer one! Even when she knows the answer. Then she ask me some question about the graph thing i got tell her -.-
OMG im getting idiotic again.

I have updated my profile (LHS). Quite long. I will be updating it every now and then...

I really want God. AA i want pastor's sermon on saturday to talk about me! AA.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

HOMESICK...

2009-11-04T17:22:00.002+08:00

HOMESICK...

I haven't even go China, and im already homesick.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

I can going to listen to the song 'Home' By Daughtry everyday in China...
So I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong... :(

I miss Singapore... although im in Singapore. -.-

Slept at 10.30 yesterday.. Considered early. Dreamt of myself running dam fast, running towards nowhere, running towards no specific direction. But i think in that dream i like quite tall. I was running like mad to nowhere, and i dun feel scared or anything. I think im feeling lost lately, and in this dream im lost too.

Was late for school. Bio SPA. Boring. Tolerated 2 hours. Recess. Two stalls open. Ate super unhealthy chips. Sex talk. Some quiz. Im a lamb -.-

A Maths. Double Degree thingy. Still Trigo.

Knew about my lvl position from teacher. I think it's not right for the parents to scold people beacuse of their level position when someone got top 20. ZZZ.

HMT. Go through bao zhang bao dao.

Eat lunch. Go library. Did abit of bio. Did 10 multiple choices of Chinese. Listen Daughtry songs from Rashid iPod. Went home -.-

Dun feel like doing Chinese. Im in holiday mood alr -.-
I've just gotten rid of exams, and there came the O'lvls.

Didnt noe got so much holiday homework. I want get back my mood sia. But i have to keep some secrets in my heart. SICKENING.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

DESPERATE FOR A MIRALCE

2009-11-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

DESPERATE FOR A MIRALCE

Happy birthday Geng Hao :)

Edited music. You'll Never Walk Alone is at the back, and No Surprise by Daughtry is in front. Spammed Daughtry songs, and also Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble.
Go listen :)

Today;s planning of GH's birthday was a total epic failure. He came up to class and saw us preparing his present. ZzZz.
Banged into Jasper and his knees hurt a lot, while nothing happened to me. LOL ZzZz. Sorry :X

So Geng Hao got the board and presents. YAY. Not really epic failure after all.

Physics. Plot graphs. Hate going to labs. Boring... But learn quite a lot.

HPB class section. By Ms Farhana. Kept calling me to go help out with the com stuff. 3 times. I actually suck at fixing stuff. I dun even noe the basic stuff when i just became an IT rep. Dunno why Mrs Wee choose me also. BUt still have to thank her for giving me this opportunity.
So, Ms Farhana showed us a 'movie'(that sucked). About sex. ZZ so lame.

A Maths. Mr Lim Bok Boon(?) took over Mrs Wee cause she didnt come. Teach until dam funny. Learn chap 13. Got alot of formulas.

Got cheena briefing, then Thurs still have -.- My lunch time...

Higher Chinese. Got back mock exam paper 2. Got 51/70. A2 LOL. Im only good at compre, and my multiple choices part suck badly.
Did another paper 2. Ms Toh then went through answers for the previous mock exam.

I had to sms wushu members cause of the open house stuff. So tough being a CCA leader... Have to do the list by tml somemore. I smsed once to the ppl, and juniors spammed sms. Replied back.

Then is like HCL class ending, then when doing the 'thank you' part, ms toh suddenly was pissed off and shouted to the class. I smsed in class and i actually didnt know she's angry. I took advantage of her kindness-.- Felt so bad. Sorry...

I tried to forget of the bad things that ede did le... But he added oil to the fire. Twice. He also pang seh-ed us after HCL lesson although i waited for him -.- So what did i do wrong now. Although i didnt sit beside him during lessons. But doesn't mean friends always have to sit beside each other rite??? Besides, i sat beside him for 1 year alr... And the dark side of him always shows up when i sit beside him. So what's wrong with changing places??? AA I DUNNO.

I dun wan to think about this anymore. The more i think about it, the more angry i am. ARGHH.

There are plenty of ups and downs in life, so LIVE WITH IT.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

WE USED TO...

2009-11-02T16:59:00.002+08:00

WE USED TO...

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

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Made 2 posts... Cause is different from the previous...

I did some self-reflection. Saying about other people's friends problems. But what about me? I think im much much worse.
I have good friends, and i took it for granted.

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We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

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It's hard to go back to what we used to be...
Cuz of what u said. What i said. And i cant just forget every single bad thing.
So what do we do?
I realised i suck at msn bowling when i no mood.
U are supposed to vent your anger on the ball and like get strikes, but i couldn't concentrate on the power and spinning bar. Virtual bowling is totally different.

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I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

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I think the real person that i dislike or hate is MYSELF.
I need God once again. Having cell on fridays and service on saturdays...
I really need God on weekdays. I need God everyday.
I need redemption. I need a miracle.

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I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.

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Lyrics of Daughtry songs all very meaningful. Very powerful to me.
All is writing to me. Oh man i hate EP now. I have to face all these problems.
It's no time to be too tired.

Walk On. Perservere. You'll Never Walk Alone.

And, SORRY. To everyone.

TOO TIRED...

2009-11-02T16:35:00.003+08:00

TOO TIRED...

To hate someone.
To help solve people's problems.
To like someone.
To do Chinese.
To care about people's feelings.
To be someone.

I just want to leave everything aside, and stop time, to scream as loud as i can.
Stop time, to sleep as long as i can.
Stop time, to enjoy what i have at the moment.

Recently got too many problems and things that have to settle. Just too tired. People's problems are worrying me. Too tired to help them.

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All these lives that you've been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
Broken homes from separation.
Don't you know it's violation?
It's so wrong, but you'll see.
Never gonna let you take my world from me.
The world outside these walls may know you're breathing,
But you ain't comin' in.
You ain't comin' in.

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I just want to listen to more and more Chris Daughtry songs... Really suits my mood.

Found msn bowling fun. Played with Rashid. Own :)

WoW. I find it hard to put smiley faces at the moment.

Thanks Kristine and Cynthia for updating me soccer. Thanks Cynthia for your encouragement. :)

EP today. Got NYAA thingy, got sex talk. Gross pictures of real private parts.

Bio, did some small experiment to recall our skills.

HCL, did compo which was ok... Quite an easy topic.

WoW. That's all?

Sadly, yes. Got no mood now. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

2009-11-01T14:04:00.002+08:00

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you... :(

Liverpool lost to arsenal on wed 1-2 and to fulham ytd 3-1...

Don't bother to see the full highlights, see the goals only. Torres scored a nice goal ytd.
And the 2 red cards by Carragher and Degen. It's time to wake up and walk on...
Seen arsenal highlights too, fabregas goal very nice... Fabregas rox!

Inspirational video...

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

If God is for you, then who can be against you?

2009-10-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

If God is for you, then who can be against you?

HOWEVER, if God is against you, then what difference does it make if the WHOLE WORLD EXCEPT HIM is for you?
Cool...

My previous post only blogged about school ytd rite? LOL. Happy belated birthday Huijie:)

Sinned alot ytd...

1. Having hatred feelings for ede. At previous post.

2. After school ytd, i decided to go to be the bad guy and went to science centre instead of CCA. Me and kristine asked mdm ashikin and we can go. So we joined Genghao, Liting, Winifred, Kimli, Amira, Raudhah. Yay, or boo?

Did an experiment in the science centre. It was rather cool, cuz we got to do a hands-on bio experiment on bacteria transformation. We like became scientists all of a sudden. We wore the scientists 'robes' too. I think this is the first time doing this kind of thing. Good experience. Pictures are on Geng hao and Liting's blog, and also on facebook.

3. Told my parents i went to CCA. A lie.

4. Missed 40min of guitar lesson.
Cuz during the coach ride back to science centre, there was a jam, cuz its peak hour. Motion sickness. Reached school 7. Took 291 at 7.20. Reached tamp int 7.30. Reached tamp mall yamaha 7.40. Open room no. 16. Everyone looking at me. Luckily i smsed my teacher saying i will be late. And i didnt bring anything there. So teacher have to photocopy his paper again. Feeling so guilty.

5. To cover up for my lie, i wore my wushu shirt back home.
Went to cell after that. Confessed to God of all my sins and cried like mad for half an hour. Even after cell still have watery eyes after a talk with Ailin. Everyone do bad things, but just know that God has forgiven us.

So that's all for a bad Friday. If friday the 30th is bad enough, i wonder how friday the 13th (in nov) will be... Will be taking my plane flight at 12.10am. LOL cannot imagine. But i know surely God is with me:)

Went for church service today, and it was Pastor Tan's birthday on Halloween. Great sermon by Pastor Kong about dreams. Cried again as im not sure if my impossible dream is according to God's will. But, its impossible, so i have to start looking for another one :(

Watch Momo Love. So cheesy. And also jump here jump there. Doesn't feel like its 1.5hrs long. Like 1hr only.

So that's all. Bye. Still feeling guilty for my sins :(

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

BEST DAY AHEAD...

2009-10-31T14:51:00.002+08:00

BEST DAY AHEAD...

A motto by Ailin :)... Don't dwell on the past, and be concerned about the future, always tell urself that the best day is ahead. NICE.

Yesterday was so tiring... School was stupid. Played chinese chess with ede, and i lost to him twice. Then he keep saying this method that he used against me very good, then he said himself that he very pro. Then he suddenly asked me if he was proud and i said no. Just telling a white lie-.-

Then in a flash, he suddenly became very proud, and arrogant.
Played Uno. Then he suay suay sat beside me. (STICKY) He won 1st (so what?), then he like keep seeing my cards. Then whenever its my turn, he will tell me what to throw. DAM PISSED.

Ok... Then i threw a card when it was my turn. And he was like NOOO u shouldnt do this u should do that... The next turn, same thing. Another turn, same thing.

Then he was like saying to everyone, Christon should have win long ago lor, Christon's method of playing so weird.

So what? Uno although have techniques, but it requires mostly about luck. And he was like bragging that he finished long ago. Then look at my cards and say throw this throw that. And he even asked me whether he was proud just now. He thinks when i said no then hes not proud? WTH.

Anyway, Uno is just a game. Then he say until i will lose all my money or i will die like that. Playing is supposed to be adventurous, and I HATE PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO. ESPECIALLY GAMES. Like i dunno how play Uno meh? On thursday i won very early twice wad, and no doubt it was luck. So why must he tell me what to do? GRR

Then when i was saying grace during recess i was like praying that anger will not overcome me. So, i choosed to avoid him to prevent myself from being angry. BTW, he has many serious problems, that make many people dislike him. Maybe during KOREF i really treated him as a good friend.

He's being very sticky, wherever i go, he will go. When i talk to this friend, he will come and try to get into the conversation. Even talking about cell group matters then he will suddenly come and ask u all toking about wad? Then i said is about cell. Then he will say chey cell... Say chey for wad?

Then got one time in term 3 i got freaked out when he asked me 'for example, if you love another guy that looks like a girl a lot, will you change your sex for him?'

I was like stunned. WTH. A guy that looked like a gal... just guess who is that. WTH. I think i took 3 seconds to say NO... Then i just tell him i will KNOCK MY HEAD and TRY TO BE STRAIGHT. Then dunno why he was like huh?

What is he thinking man? I SERIOUSLY DUNNO. Was he saying himself? Then why he want to ask this kind of boliao question? WTH. It's scary to hang out with him alr...

That time i was too afraid to blog about this. But now i want clear this out.
Im starting to worry about EP... i dun wan to sit with him anymore. But i scared he sensed sth. Anyone help?

I cant even sit with him if he is straight cuz of his 'proudness'. Pls dun tell him about it. PLS.

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Change subject... Today morning have to go school with my mother cuz got briefing about the China trip. I was moody that time. After the briefing, we went to tampines interchange there to eat. I dun wan to eat, but my mom say have to eat before the flu jab. Then i was like sian sian go buy tao huay eat. Then my mom see me moody then scolded me -.- Say i was not interested to go China things like that. Actually i was, but now ok alr. Go China then go lor.

Went to family clinic for flu jab. Bought motion sickness(i have sadly) pills and also diarhoea pills. Bought winter clothing that sums up to $376. WOW. Bought Giordano jeans. Was feeling headache cuz of the smell of the jeans and also the carpet. I always got problem one la... Then my mom wanted to continue shopping, so i took 2 big bags and went home. 3 hours. WOAH. Dun like shopping. AND I DUN LIKE COLD WEATHER! MAYBE NEGATIVE DEGREES THERE! Better give me snow from all that torture... I never see snow be4 lol. I serious hate cold weather. I want to go Australia cuz its summer. Or the best, stay in Singapore. I LOVE SINGAPORE. WOOHOO! -.-

Got church later. Let the Holy Spirit come :)
Hope today will have a great service.

Cant go jogging tml!!! AAA. Cuz of the flu jab. Non sense la...

I want to blog or go msn in China... Hope during the homestay can use my buddy's com. Later all chinese -.-

Ok that's all. Yiren want me talk to him LOL.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Impossible is Nothing...

2009-10-29T18:54:00.002+08:00

Impossible is Nothing...

我向前走低著头眼泪不停向後流
一直走不回头希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿希望都落空我仍相信其实你懂我
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我向前走抬起頭擦掉眼淚向前走
一直走不回头希望你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍希望都实现我仍相信其实你懂我...

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Saying out something i have learnt...
Not knowing what i have done...
Went back...
Didnt know what to do...

I shall not dwell on it. Anger shall not overcome me.

When Rashid, Geng Hao and I were buying presents, they keep adding salt to my wound. Keep pestering me. Dote on me? LOL that's so wrong.
Took Rashid's malay assessment book, changed the names of the people in a passage. Then things turned out all wrong. Very wrong..

Im beginning to take back my words about maturity... It's not working out this way.

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It's no surprise i won't be here tomorrow,
I can't believe that i stayed till today,
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow,
But i know in time we'll find this was no surprise...

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Dentist today, was late. Despite being late for 30min, i have to wait for another 30min. Then finished in 10mins. Put 2 'springs' inside. WOW so tight.

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Everything's gonna be alright,
Cuz you are in My life.
You have blown me away,
All of my troubles, all of my life i give it to you my King...

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Things gonna turn out alright. Stop being so paranoid and pessimistic.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

BLAH BLAH HAHA

2009-10-28T21:22:00.007+08:00

BLAH BLAH HAHA

His Armband Proved He Was A Red TORRES TORRES,
You'll Never Walk Alone it said TORRES TORRES,
We Bought The Lad From Sunny Spain,
He Gets The Ball He Scores Again,
FERNANDO TORRES, LIVERPOOL'S NUMBER NINE.

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Got back the results slip, got 77.4% Without Malay wil be 77.5%. That time when Liverpool lost to Chelsea i said i will eliminate all Chelsea fans... And i did it! Pawan, Zul and ANDERSON, [United's midfield magician (just jk)]... I won Anderson! Chelsea fans eliminated! WOOHOO!

Talked to Benedict for very long recently. I tot he is the non-emotional type, but then he replied me thanks and a smiley face. LOLLOL.

Feeling quite happy... Dunno and no need to know why :) Cuz its goooood...

Contributed to class team score from the Sudoku Challenge thingy. Got free junk food. YAY. But is cheapskate de... bought in bulk. Love the OREO :)

Btw,

I noe i shouldn't be putting this, im not a Man Utd fan, but in case u are wondering what i meant by the other Anderson, the man u guy, well...this is the other Anderson-.- It is advisable to listen only 30sec... Super not nice... Torres song much nicer rite? (DUH) :)
Jit Wei and Keith taught me this song LOL. But I not Judas! Liverpool 4eva!

During CCA i was so tired, from yesterday's 'marathon'. Just to exaggerate to sound it as very tiring. During CCA, theres this activity where we have to group in pairs, when me and Leon(junior) are doing it, we couldn't stop laughing, and 2 groups from the other team overtook us LOL. The coach thinks he very tua and asks us to do 100 push-ups. Of course slack one la, but still tiring cuz its 100.

Then, the coach want us do ONE MORE TIME -.- So i tried to stop laughing and encourage him by saying jiayou jiayou to him like that. Then the coach at the last part say, if the other group overtake us then we must do another 100 pumping. And the group is just beside us LOL. So we chionged like mad. Phew... Saved.

Super tiring after CCA... Bought dinner, sat on the floor and eat. My legs cannot even tahan sitting down, so i have to straighten my legs.

Singapore Idol results at 10... now abt 9.45. Still dunno who to support. So anyone out oso dun care LOL. But if the person performs well and he or she gets eliminated then abit not fair la...

Ok done... Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

I NEED ANOTHER MIRACLE

2009-10-27T22:51:00.004+08:00

I NEED ANOTHER MIRACLE

Life is so demanding. During exams, i was like wishing exams will end quickly so i can have fun. After exams, i feel bored, and im just staring at the com. C'mon, com is one of the most advanced technologies in the world, theres billions of websites to go, and i feel bored. WOW?

Instead of watching some horror shows or sth like that, we watched Mind Your Language in class... WOW how entertaining is that. May be nice to other ppl la.. :(

25min in 4.3km... Ran with a breathing rhythm. First time trying that. Not bad... not so tiring.

God, i need a miracle to help my friends. Different friends have different problems, and hope you will help me deal with them accordingly. Some needs freedom, some needs thinking, some needs joy, some needs comfort.
In conclusion, ALL NEEDS YOU GOD, including me.

Love makes the world grow round, and dun let the devil overcome you by putting hatred in your hearts. Trust and believe.

What's wrong with exam results? Does this minor thing needs anger to overcome oneself?

Am i just ACTING mature? I want to have a heart as innocent as a child and a body like an adult. What do i need actually... (heart and soul that trusts in God is enough)

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Daughtry songs are nice, i like No Surprise.
I like One Step At A Time by Jordin Sparks.

I like songs with wonderful lyrics, and emo melodies... What do i like actually... (I dunno, random songs that i listen)

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I act as if i can tell someone from good or bad, and to lead them into the correct path. But what do i know actually... (NOTHING)

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I learn guitar to escape from wushu. Learning it without liking it. But i sort of like it now. But what do i want actually... (Piano, soccer)

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Life is full of contradictions and mistakes, so LIVE WITH IT.

OOOH OK...

2009-10-27T15:47:00.002+08:00

OOOH OK...

Got 30/50 for my SS. WOOHOO! 12/25 for SBQ (i always sucked at that) and 18/25 for SEQ(Dun have linking statements? WTH)
So, Combined Humanities got 66%, B3. I used to get A2, so dropped a grade. But i possess no feelings, all numb inside.

So, numbness was overcomed by Bio results. Wrote a whole bunch of crap for the Bio essay, and unexpectedly, i got the joint-highest with Geng Hao. LOOOOL. Feel like laughing man. Then for the whole paper, i got 76%. Phew... A1 at last :)

It's ok Kristine... You will get top next year, but maybe a few perverted ones in our class topping tests on Reproduction in Animals :D

After that, 'NEXT!' Me and Pawan did that from mon... After getting back every subject then "NEXT!' ZZ my way of expressing stuff sucks...

So, 'next' was English. Got back my summary. First time got 15 points from summary. But there are actually 21 points LOL. I got 18 of them. So, summary got 18.5/25, cuz of the language section. 3.5/10. No one got above 6 for language. Crazy...

Suddenly, Rashid wanted to eat when i already planned to dabao home. Winifred came along as she had a dental appointment. Went to 201 coffee shop. Decided not to dabao home and bought a waffle instead. Was quite quiet throughout...

Went home, on-ed or switched on the com. Blog-hopping. Came across a very very cool blog on Sunday. I can look at that blog for several hours, cuz the way of expressing feelings is super nice.. A very famous celebrity... Learned many 'secrets' about her.. But some posts her posts are like mine... emo emo one LOL. I not so liao rite?

Seeing my results, just know that life is full of surprises, whether good or bad, so just LIVE WITH IT.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

THANKS FOR THE MIRACLES!!!

2009-10-26T17:36:00.003+08:00

THANKS FOR THE MIRACLES!!!

Praise God for giving me wonderful marks!!!

Chem: 90/100 A1
Phy: 82/100 A1
E Maths: 135/140 97% A1
A Maths: 83/100 A1
E Geog: 36/50 72% A2

Distinctions!!! WOOHOO!!!

Will be getting back Bio and SS!!! Chances of getting distinctions very low...
Also hope that my English and Chinese can get B3 overall...

Me, Kristine, Geng Hao, Rashid, Jun Jie went to Liting's condo Savannah condopark.
Thanks Liting for letting us go to your condo!!! :D

Had many wonderful memories there...

1st time there: Took shuttle bus there. Went to block 39, 8th floor, Benedict's house. Played electronic games there. When it was time to go, Me, Benedict, Jian Jun, Vernon, Keith (all i can remember, and Jit Wei wasn't there yet) rushed to the Hippo pool to catch the shuttle bus. We were almost late, and we chionged there. Then Jian Jun slipped and fell, Pretty hard. LOL.

Went there more often since then. IPW, play PS2, play soccer, played Wii (sec2), played bowling, went Christmas parties, barbeque, and even also to slack be4 going to CCA. I think i went there 50 times in sec1 and 2? LOL. But this year, i went to Savannah (from Ben) only TWICE :(

So i was really happy when Liting invited us to come to her condo.. Played bowling, got an unexpected 110 points! WA... But the bowling lanes always got prob, as usual. Think Keith that time throw the ball on the floor and cause a dent. LOL.

Today a resident from the other lane told Rashid not to practically throw the bowling ball onto the floor, cuz will damage the floor. Then Rashid was pissed off LOL.
Went to the playground. Pull up, only can lift myself 10cm -.- Wait until im 15? LOL. 1 more month exactly only. And when im in China. Speaking of that, so sian.

Hope Ben can invite me go his house for Christmas. :)

Liverpool won Man Utd!!! How can i say that i want them to lose? I feeling so bad now. I must always trust in them.

Had a dreadful night last night. -.-
The Liverpool match ended at 12, then after the match i have a serious headache. Went to bed at 12.20. Then cant sleep. Till 1am. Then i managed to sleep despite my headache, but only for 45min. Mosquitoes began biting me, and my hands were super itchy. 1.45 only??!!
With my headache+mosquito bites, i decided to on the air-con. Still cannot at first, but then at ard 2.30, i managed to sleep.

So for this 2hr ++, it was super torturing la. But i think i had some quality sleep, im still not feeling tired despite sleep for 4hr+ Praise God.

Someone asked me some questions that made me really speechless. Made me remember of something that will be stuck in my heart forever... So regretful. Sorryyyyyyyyyy.

Make those unwanted memories as a lesson to you, and live with it.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

You'll Never Walk Alone

2009-10-25T15:09:00.003+08:00

You'll Never Walk Alone

Liverpool vs Man Utd. Was so pissed that my Torres, Glen Johnson and Gerrard cant play against Man Utd in my PSP. So similar to real life...

1st time, i lost 2-4. 2nd time, i played Gerrard, Torres and Glen Johnson despite their fitness levels and lost 0-3. I was playing the super hard difficulty mode but it was more challenging this way. I was practically scolding my PSP and my virtual players. So fed up with these minor things. I can say that liverpool results are directly proportional to my mood.

Btw, i feel that Liverpool should really lose today. I actually want them to lose. Sorry, but that's the only way that will make Liverpool change and shape in a better way. That's how life goes. My former idol Michael Owen is in the rival team. Whether i accept it or not thats how life goes. So live with it...

I want to protest against Tom Hicks and George Gillett too... Really hate them for making Liverpool go into debts.

1 week passed, haven played soccer with my sec2 friends yet. Even the 'rare' 3r1 badminton outing was cancelled. Total boredom. For the first time, i was lazy to go running today. Planned to go running in the evening. I want to run, but i want to run chasing for a soccer ball and dribbling with it.

O'Levels Chinese? China trip? The BORING holidays? Im not looking forward to all of them. Every single day is boring right now.

I think im beginning to realise why the world will end. Even mankind, the rulers of Earth, is beginning to hate life here. Im a ruler? oh nonono... Just a young, small teenager, oops... i mean, young, small, baby faced KID.

It will be such a waste if i cant accomplish what i want to do be4 the world ends. But that's life.

Life
Is
Very
Easy?

Y
O
U
R

Life
Is
F******
Easy...

This is life, so live with it.

The world will never be the same...

2009-10-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

The world will never be the same...

I really want to thank and praise God for making me anointed and return back to Him. Cell and church today made me return to reality.

Heard a very good sermon by Pastor Tan... Short but meaningful, so service ended in time :)

Thanks Aaron for treating the cell group Subway cookies today... Luckily i asked the cashier 3 times about the price of the cookies. From $11.60 to $8.70 -.- Cashier so gundu.

Went home watched ending of Boys Over Flowers. Watched new Taiwanese idol drama at 9.30 called Momo Love. Adapted from Japan's manga "Momoka Typhoon". Nice storyline. Quite cheesy too -.-

I want outings that doesn't cost money. I totally disagree with Rashid that only the air is free in Singapore. Feeling so discouraged. Want life without sports? Welcome to my world.

I seriously dun feel fun during the outings. Cloudy with a chance of meatballs, Aliens in the Attic, Harry Potter, Swensens, Just Acia, Hei Sushi (reject), Bowling, Cycling (treat). Soccer, Running, Playing electronic games. Can see the difference?
All these money totalled, is MUCH MORE than what i have spent for the previous 2 years.
Cant adapt to the present, to the reality that i must face. Miss my sec 2 friends...
Sorry to 3r1. I dun really fit in to this class.

If u ask me, would i rather be stupider, dun care (so much) about studies, go to 3r2, be hated by some 3r1 people? I would say a big YES.

So what. If i can have fun to the max, then i dun mind.

I also dunno which group of people am i blogging to. People seeing this are mostly 3r1. Ugh, never mind.

Adapt to the present. This is life, so live with it...

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Why am I like that

2009-10-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

Why am I like that

What's life after exams? Boring.
Are problems solved after exams? No.
Are promises made and fulfilled? No.

Why am i having mood swings all the time? Puberty? No. My heart is just empty, and i dun wan that. Taiwanese idol dramas really ruin my life. I dun think i will watch these kind of shows anymore, even though i like them. It's killing me.

Why am i backsliding? It's not because it's after exams and im having fun, and i forget about God. Yes, i forget God for many moments after exams, but there's no reason to it.

Forgotten? Outcasted? I dun care about these things 1st. I need to get my heart back. I need to get back into reality.

Anyone? Someone? No. No one. No one? Maybe some.

Why am I like that? Why so many questions? Why, why, why.

Forgotten, broken, criticism, anger, failure, blame. Practical life.

I want God. back. soon.

PEAsed(PISSED)

2009-10-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

PEAsed(PISSED)

The Post Exam Activities are total crap. Yesterday we have some dance and guitar performances, not to mention a lecture.

Today was some talks. For sec3s we had anger management talks, which made me even more angrier after the talk, and also the Canadian teacher telling us her experience when she did a marathon at the Sahara Desert.

It's not that these performances and talks aren't good, it's just that PEAs are supposed to let us relax after the exams, thats why its called POST EXAM activities. At least, let the students interact with each other -.-

CCA sucks. The wushu jersey totally failed, there was no front logo and only a back logo. ALL MY FAULT. What to do, i suck and i am so forgetful, but i am the captain. WHOA, captain ar... SO? BIG DEAL. AN IRRESPONSIBLE CAPTAIN. BUT I JUST CANT QUIT LIKE THAT RITE. WHY AM I LIKE THAT? I also get so tensed up when teacher asked me to do stuff. I have to send messages to 40+ ppl telling them that theres training, only to see 3/4 came. You think i want to go training issit? Im not like Jing Yi and Timothy Bay, who are so enthu.

Have to get my mood back. Or else i will get dao-ed. Talked less than 30 words today. COOL. Bye.

~Yea wadeva~

CRAZE

2009-10-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

CRAZE

LOL love all this songs... plus all the songs that i have posted be4. Pls listen and see the video! This show so nice!!! XD

Savage Girlfriend...

2009-10-18T19:35:00.002+08:00

Savage Girlfriend...

野蠻女友!!

Just watched finsh a Taiwanese idol drama called 櫻野3加1... feeling empty as usual :( The story so touching. The ending sort of sucked too.

Yesterday went to church and bible study. At first i no mood and very sleepy one, then church made me sort of bring me back to reality, cuz i was so engrossed in the show. But then today, i watched finished the show then watched a lot of behind the drama scenes... Spent about 5hrs at that LOL. I start to feel empty inside. And that show was in 2007. Fated to Love You is in 2008. I dam lag la.

But then theres another show called Take Care Of You, Accompanied By The Lights. Haven come out yet, and i not sure if its nice. Cuz the show was taken in China -.-
AAA save me from the emptiness!!!

Thanks Kristine and Cynthia for yesterday's soccer highlights... Liverpool lost... again. 3 consecutive losses. Inverse proportion for my results? Maybe...

Got F1! Go Kimi!

Want to watch more shows... Boys Over Flowers, watched in Channel U and is about to end soon, so i dun bother to see the first few episodes...

No cable channels... So bored. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Thank God It's Over...

2009-10-16T12:28:00.002+08:00

Thank God It's Over...

I wanna thank those people who have helped me during the exams. Jasper, Rashid, Geng Hao, Yi Ren, Winifred, Hui Yi and also my cell members and cell leader Ailin. Especially Jasper, he helped me a lot :)

Exams over! These are the unlikely A subjects:

1) English
2) Higher Chinese
3) Biology

Combined Humanities i not very sure. Didn't do well for SS. Just hoping to get 75% only. Malay included, die. Want get A.

Yay, finally can watch my shows and play my games!
Thank God for this MIRACLE!

Lol a short post, want to chiong watching my show now. Bye!

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

I NEED TO STOP TIME...

2009-10-11T18:17:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO STOP TIME...

so that i can study more. 平时不烧香，急着抱佛脚。

These words are in my HCL test -.- Directly impacted on me. Was like diao when i reading the paragraph. Then oso got wad, burn midnight oil affects health, and must study regularly.

But there's another phrase: 学习效率的好坏不在于量，而在于质。 means u must study with quality time, concentrate throughout, and not studying 10 hrs that only have the effect of 5 hours.

Saturday and Sunday... like sort of wasted, although these are the days that i accomplished the most things this year. Because last minute panic wad. Chem, i took a few hours of Thurs, Fri and Sat. Physics, Sat and Sun. And i didn't finish studying every single thing. Maybe gonna do Chem TYS later. Wait, its not maybe is MUST -.- So idiotic.

Subjects which are impossible to get A1 now: Physics, Biology, E Geog(must see SS).
Gone case.

I think this is the worst EOY in my life. Living the days like i was in Pri 6, the PSLE period. Just read through textbook and files that time, and didnt memorise anything. At least now got improved la, but for sec sch standard, cannot.

England lost to Ukraine... Fabio Capello should play David James from the start...
Dun like Gerrard playing wing.

Where's my LAME law? It's gone, to both of my Maths tests. 0-2, 20/20. 0-2, 20/20.

I think i just aim to get 75% overall now. Top 10 no more.

I want talk about Job. I remember i played soccer with Cornerstone friends, then there's this guy the jersey name is Job. At first i dunno why he called Job, and that time i dunno who's Job, so i pronounced it as the working that kind of Job. u noe, JAWB. So paiseh, somemore i Christian. And now, i still dunno why he called himself Job. I think is maybe of his faithfulness in God. It's really tough being Job u noe, living so many years of suffering, but then to get 140 years of paradise. I counted, he got 13 kinds of illnesses. And also, his business, his 10 children, all gone. So xin ku la...

加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油加油

我要停笔了。堆积如山的书本正等着我去读呢！
祝你
学业进步
身体健康

你不会只有你一个人走路的！ LOL lazy change back English... Bye.

Just keep walking with ur head up high

2009-10-09T22:54:00.003+08:00

Just keep walking with ur head up high

... And u will see ur path right in front of ur eyes.

This song very nice, inspirational to me. The chorus at first is actually about a gal always putting her head down crying. Then after that, the chorus changed to a happier tune and the lyrics changed to the gal wiping her tears, and walking with her head up high. Although that is not the main idea of the song, it seems like that to me. Everything have a different perspective. It depends on how u look at it, isn't it.

"The Impossible Dream"... introduced to me by Cynthia... Nice lyrics.

SS. Wrote crap for the role of people essay. Completely forgotten the linking statements, and wrote my own. SBQ, my inference, my comparison, and my cross references are all crap too.

E Maths. At first stucked at many questions, then my mind suddenly cleared, thanks to God. Just have a $&+&n!c dream the night before. Now i realised what the dream is signaling to me. Thought it was some scary dream that was going to come through, but Praise the Lord :)

English, wrote some Christianity stuff for the essay, and i really hope the marker will be a Christian. If is not then i die liao. Later say my whole thing not relevant topic. But Christianity is INDEED relevant to happiness.

Paper 2, rain on my paper. Winnie got some problem. She looked depressed, but she still called me gal gal after that -.-

Higher Chinese. Compo and letter writing was fine, but i dunno why people think its hard. Paper 2 was then hard. Every ci yu in the xuan ci tian kong most all i dunno one. Might minus 10+ marks there alr.

Paper ended 6.45. Chionged to Yamaha and reached there at 7.10. Then when i enter the class, then there's this adult 'classmate' said to me i looked tall when i am wearing school uniform -.- Then there's this sec2 'classmate' who is taller than me (DUH) said INSULT. LOL. Actually quite happy when the woman classmate said that to me. Im the shortest in the class i think (DUH again) -.-

Missed last episode of Avatar. NVM... Huiyen reminded me of Ying Ye3+1 in her blog!! AARGH!! Cant... resist... temptation... REN-ed for 2 weeks alr. 6 more days to go. But i doubt i can really enjoy after my exams when my mom said after exams, must plan your time for O'levels alr -.- WTH. Is life all about studying? Even a gal smarter than me said no.
Farhan out of Singapore Idol... No more talent for the guys already. It's gonna be a Miss Singapore... IDOL. LOL

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Tomorrow's the Big Day

2009-10-06T16:45:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow's the Big Day

LOL. funny video. Just For Laughs.

Tml, SS and E Maths Paper 1. I focused more on SS the past few days, and i also didn't prepare much for SBQs. I think Ms Cheryl Tan is a very good teacher :)

School, boring. 1st lesson E Maths, the Do Nothing period. Bio, going through answers. Chem, going through answers and next half of the lesson is Do Nothing period... Got 42/50 for my Chinese test. Dam happy, my summary improved alot.

A Maths, shifted tables for the exams, and i was shifted to the back -.- Got back the thank you cards, and im really surprised so many people wrote for me. Thank you all :)
Physics, went through answers, again. 3 sciences all the same.
English, went through answers for compre and summary. Didn't do the summary, and the compre answers alot different from mine. DIE.

Got to go memorise SS essays. Wish everyone good luck in your studies :)

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

I will SHINE for You...

2009-10-05T15:57:00.004+08:00

I will SHINE for You...

"A successful person is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks that others throw at him."

"Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it."

Begin it. I dream i can do it, but i didn't begin it. START NOW.

I'll never gonna give up. But SS is seriously too boring. Even worse for physics. Just remembered of Transfer of Heat Energy chapter and also Biology's Nutrition in Animals and Plants. SIAN.

For mid-year, i studied Chem in just one day. After an exam before Chem, went home, took out Ms Tia's notes and textbook, and began to study. Breaks in between... Until 10pm, went to sleep. Next morning, Chem exam. In the end, what happened? PURE LUCK.

Dun think it can happen this time. Mid year is only half. The most, i need 2 full days to complete a subject. Haven even started writing notes yet... Im gonna die for E Geog man...

Wonder how everyone copes... Everyone like started studying during the prehistoric times, while im studying in 2009. October 2009. Exact date? I dunno. Definitely not now.

I've been blogging so much on studies. And i haven even started studying yet.

Today, school. So sleepy. Chem period no hope. The teacher very sarcastic. There was once where someone asked a chem question, then Mrs Raja was like, "Like that also don't know? C'mon think think!" Then today, she said, "Dun be afraid to ask questions. C'mon ask ask!"

LOL the content is there la... She like contradicting lor. Today went through Chem MYE answers which i haven do finish yet... She is always going through answers. Chem workbook, Chem tests, Chem notes or worksheets, Chem past year papers. WTH

Higher Chinese. Went through the format of letter writing, then slept for 5 mins. Sleep broken when Eric wanted to borrow scissors. Then about 3 mins later, Hui Yi wanted to borrow scissors too -.-

Bio. Got the test back. Alot of people got A1. And i got 29.5/40. Half mark to A1. Pathetic.

E Maths and A Maths periods, aka the greatest time of the day. Got back E Maths and A Maths papers. Full marks! Always scared that what i've got now will not be what i will get for EOY.

Teacher told us about Appreciation, and she said that some people treat the thank you cards thing as a joke. Just when i realised that Zul used MY NAME, to write to Andreas. No, to DRAW to Andreas something about Chewbacca. I think teacher must have thought it was me. SIAN. Luckily Zul wrote a sorry letter to Mrs Wee.

Speaking of Zul, next time i shouldn't be so kind to people already. On Thursday, i kindly lent him $12 for the school magazine and stuff. Friday, he paid me back $5. -.- Nvm, i told him to pay me back the rest on Monday, which is today. Today, he returned me $5 -.- In case u just failed your maths, he still owe me a $%^%^&%*$% $2. Treated my kindness for granted. Not saying i very stingy, but you think he can do the same to Yiren, who is collecting the money? -.-'' He better pay me back tml.

Last time, this guy slipped and fell down. And it is that kind of fall down then very paiseh one. That time not many people was there, and so not to let people know that he has fell down, i didnt want to attract attention and just pulled him up and just whispered you ok anot that kind of thing. I think a lot of people will either be laughing, or will like 'run' towards the person and 'shout' YOU OK ANOT HUH? Its dam embarrassing one la. I think that guy knew what i did for him.

That one good right? HOWEVER, (like SS) there were some cases where being kind is not really good.
Last time, there's this guy, (another guy la, cant say names) who is well-hated(?) by many people. And so not to let this guy feel sad, I tried to make friends with him. And i realised that once i talked to him, everyone was like avoiding me. Im like, WTH?! I think now still the same. Although i also quite dun like him, but i choose not to avoid him. So, this person can suddenly come and talk to me, then when this guy comes, that person like suddenly ZAO.

So, is being kind good? I dunno. Can i create a word called overkindness?

Wrote so much, have to study. Maybe study only. Hope i will not get distracted. Bye.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

Everything's possible...

2009-10-04T12:53:00.002+08:00

Everything's possible...

Matthew 19:27 ... With men, this is impossible. But with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. With God. YAY YAHWEH YOW.

Church yesterday, felt a little presence of Holy Spirit, that's all. No mood. Why?

SS not done studying yet... Aging population sucks... Dun feel like reading through that. I dun even have the model essay for qn 6.

E Maths, quite confident. Only that i take a looong time to figure out how solve properties of circles qns. My Profit & Cost chapter totally forgotten alr. Matrices too...

English Chinese, dun bother to do assessments, and forgotten how write letter wring for English.

So many things to study. Instead of having more time to study, i wish it will be over soon. Dun care anymore.

At least i have aim in studying: get $500 Edusave Scholarship. But that's totally a dream if i dun buck up now...

100 sit ups in 90secs...

Watched a lot of spoilers of Boys Over Flowers. Cant wait for exams to end. Drama marathon after exams.

'Keep forgetting to forget about you'... Found this in Rashid's blog. SO SO TRUE. The you refers to SO MANY things. Or person -.-

SS today for me, i think... Done all the e maths paper 1, quite easy leh. Over confidence building up...

Kimi Raikkonen 5th in starting grid. Not bad... If he goes to McLaren then good lor.
Liverpool vs Chelsea today!!! 10.55pm. So what? I can't watch. My passion for soccer dying if i dun save it now.
Singtel? Starhub? Why not just both? YOW.

2nd idol after exams la. Sian alr. Bye.

~That's All FOlks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

I Dreamed A Dream...

2009-10-03T13:37:00.005+08:00

I Dreamed A Dream...

Jia you, christon. Dunno why i cant study since term 3. Since CA2, it seems that i cant finish studying every subject. Got to persevere.

1st idol: Jian Jun.

In Sec1, he was simply so immature and childish. Likes to play jokes on other people and very naughty. many people did not like him in Sec1. I even deleted his contact from my phone. To that extent, u noe. During the class chalet in 2007, i sort of became very angry at him. I think during that time, he realised that many people did not liked him.

Sec2, he changed a lot. Tried not to tease people, tried to understand other people's feelings. During mid-year, i put his contact back into my phone.LOL. That's not the main point. But, he really made me realised that one person can change so much just because of people's views.

I think he really can change his attitude and conduct to suit other people. Really respected him a lot. He also tried to be a Christian, but failed -.- Jiayou.

Another minor reason why he's my idol is becuz hes tall. 1.78m. Going to 1.8m. LOL

Coming up... 2nd idol... In the next post.

Btw, this is my 100th post. LOL

That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

SO MUCH PRESSURE...

2009-09-30T21:41:00.002+08:00

SO MUCH PRESSURE...

Not about physics here... Really alot of pressure.

Had to do the wushu music, and i dun even noe whether the song is acceptable onot. But im not going to make any changes already... If they dun like it, i dun care. Just get this performance over and done with! Grr...

Studies, die alr. Tml reaching home at 10... SHIT. This sux alot.

Yesterday, woke up at 4.40am to study abit of E maths. Also to see the scores of Champions League matches. Liverpool lost to Florentina 2-0... That means my results will be good :) Thanks alot. Results will be good, but which one? Hope its EOY.

Dam sian now... bye,

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

WHAT A RUSH

2009-09-29T21:34:00.004+08:00

WHAT A RUSH

Saturday, went out most of the time, came back at night, didn't touch on my books.
Sunday, spent my time doing Maths. Not Bio, Malay or anything. Also, SS. Seems i care more about EOY which is 2 weeks away, not about the tests that was just 2 days away.
Monday, school, had lunch with Jasper (only?), and spent only 25 mins eating LOL. Time was 3.25pm, and my dental appointment at 5pm. Decided to go home. Go home, bathe, see newspaper, look at the clock, 4.20!!! Rushed out. Waited for bus while hanging myself on a pull-up bar. Proven that you can lengthen your body like that. Did for 15secs, and bus came -.- Took bus to Bedok MRT. Took to City Hall, then to Dhoby Ghaut. Looked at time. 4.55. o.0 still ok. Took a 5 minutes walk to the dental clinic. 5.02 pm! Ok nth exciting about that...

Then waited for 10mins till the dentist called me. 2 ulcers. Oh shit... Was like praying when checking the braces, and taking out the wires and putting in again. The dentist was fine, but the stupid(ok nvm) assistant frantically stretched my mouth open like some rubber band, and she was her 'muscular' thumb was touching one of my ulcer -.- I almost screamed, and not to mention jaw ache for opening my mouth so big for 20mins. + the ulcer, AWWWWW. Eyes went watery. Gripped the armchair as if i was giving birth -.- Ok enough about girl's stuff here... Dun want to be called a girl again...
So, when it was done, i only said thank you to the dentist. Arranged for another appointment, went home. In time to watch Fairly Oddparents. And continued watching tv after that. Went to watch Amazing Race LOL. In Vietnam. Then there's this part that one of them have to use flags to guide the ducks around. And the 2nd or 3rd became the last because of this -.- Dam suay. Cuz the women was like chasing the ducks, not guiding them -.- Then because this couple is dating, the guy said after the show I WANT A WOMEN WHO HAS PATIENCE. LOL. dunno if they broke up.

Avatar. Zuko wanted to join the Avatar side. Then got the combustion man. His power so lame... Then when his 'third' eye injured or wad, and when he want to shoot out the explosion thingy, he exploded himself -.-
Studied ABIT of Bio and glancing through the Malay notebook.

Tuesday. School, bio test. Totally flunked. Forgot everything about the labelling part and also the villus. Wrote crappy answers. DIE. Nvm. MALAY. chionged to school cuz we tot it was 2pm. then it was actually 3pm. LOL. Then we decided to have a 'picnic' under a big tree and sat on a bench with red ants.

MALAY EOY. Screwed up compo and letter. Wrote like some kindergarten kid. I think they can do better than me -.- Cikgu Bakri was like SO 'helpful' la... Too helpful till he like just tell us the answers can liao. Paper 2, he explained every sentence in the compre passage -.- Then theres this vocab part, he told us the answers without him knowing -.- Then listening comprehension. He did the same as compre. LOL. Then he is like telling us the answers already. But not really la. The listeing quite tough.

Oral, easy. During the conver, i dunno what i was talking. Then 5 secs later, i tot about what i said, then suddenly, HEY i actually spoke SUPER FLUENT malay! LOL. I was like talking dam fast and i dunno what was i talking. Then he was like saying good good then i was like huh? HEHE. PRO INSTINCT? XD

Gtg do some CCA matters and still got E maths test tml AAA. Maybe studying when watching Liverpool match. IF can watch la.

Happy Birthday Papa! When singing the birthday song was so awkward la. Then later he made ALOT of wishes and blew the candle. Then no one wanted to eat the cake, yet. LOL. So we didnt eat the cake. XD

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone~

Post-It-Note:

2009-09-26T23:42:00.002+08:00

Post-It-Note:

1. Cant wait for exam to finish

2. I want to watch Ying Ye3+1 and Boys Over Flowers soon... cant wait... On Friday watched a bit of Ying Ye 3+1 cuz i couldn't resist the temptation :)

3. Liverpool 6 Hull 1... TORRES HATTRICK :)

4. Studied one point of SS today only -.-

5. Malay EOY on Tues!!! And haven studied -.- Dunno how

6. Had a great service in church today... Pastor Kong super busy... wonders how he always come out with good sermons in such a short time

7. Felt more motivated to study harder after service :) But didnt study since coming back from church -.-

8. Watched the qualifying round for Singapore GP... Raikkonen 13th zz

9. Tottenham 5 Burnley 0 -.- Former Liverpool player Robbie Keane scored 4 goals? LOL nvm... Torres still top scorer at the moment :)

10. Wigan 3 Chelsea 1!!! LOL Chelsea got owned :X

11. Wanted to chiong study tml... See if i have the mood

12. 100 situps in 94 secs... deproving

13. Soccer results in my way :) Quite happy

14. That's it! Gonna study tml :) No matter what... Maybe Malay 1st? But dunno how study...

15. Cant celebrate my bday in Singapore :( And cant celebrate my bday with my family for the 2nd year -.- Sad... But had a memorable bday last year at Fish & Co.

16. Thanks Kristine and also Cynthia for always updating me soccer :)

17. Ironic, why is it girls? Rare... 3r1 boys where are you?

18. Theres this nike advertisement about Men vs Women... at first the stats showed that Men run more per week than Women, and then the Women wanted to prove the Men wrong. Then Zlatan Imbramovich so bad sia, say Men and 'Ladies' LOL. Then he run in front of the girl and asking them to catch up LOL. Nice... Got Torres inside too :)
In the end the stats keep going up and down like siao.

19. That's all.

20. ~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

I can only sing half of the song...

2009-09-25T13:46:00.002+08:00

I can only sing half of the song...

我只能唱着，一半的歌。。。
This song is in my head everyday... Love it... Sad song rocks :) Jolly songs sux

Having a lot of mixed feelings lately. This sucks. Cant even have a proper relationship cuz i look like a small kid? ZzZz

100 situps in 89 secs? The more u do, the more u think it is impossible. That is why day by day, i'll try to do more perfect situps resulting in slower time -.- This is like some sort of a exercise report... Maybe should write it everyday to see improvements.

Want to have fun and study together... But studying is not fun. Stopping time is so cool... When i everytime hear people say how many more days left to exams, i feel like killing the person, or ask the person go die.

But some how, i still think its not too late to study. Cuz we just knew what topics will be coming out for the Chem and E Geog tests. There's till time... Got to make full use of it.

Get the shyness out of me!!!

Signing off with quite a happy mood -.- Ok i think neutral feelings. Ok maybe sad :(

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

CRAZY CHRISTON

2009-09-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

CRAZY CHRISTON

Still remember we were playing some ice breaker games during our few weeks in sec 3... Dunno got wad Gentle Gim Hui all these things... Then rmb some enthu people put their ones on msn -.- Time passed so fast.

So pissed with everything, and i dunno why suddenly i have this kind of attitude. Cant do anything i pleases, as a child. But hey, im a teen now, no more a child. Teens cant do what we want? And i still have this baby face that makes me look like primary student. It's not like i want to be good-looking or wad, but at least let my face 'resembles' my age can? If not then put me back in primary school la. Studying was such a breeze last time.

I cant remember when i started studying for EOY last year. But should be earlier than me studying now. Anyway, im not even studying yet. So, im laggin like siao. But so wad? It's like, our aim for coming to this world is to stuff our heads with information and not to have peace joy and laughter? Maybe when grow up u will find happiness, but what about a baby faced "primary student" like me? Anyway, grow up. GROW UP? Im sec 3, and it looks like im a guy with no puberty. Not even a guy. A KID.

There's this HCL compre exercise that cher gave me, and the passage stated about this guy read books like siao, then grow up go write books, write until like siao... something like that. And this guy said that the world is so big, and there's no such thing as limited information in ur brain. Is this guy bonkers? He wan be smart and be outstanding isit? Sorry it doesnt work for me. I rather be a normal boy, or what it calls a plain jane, for a girl.

I have some serious mood swings. I even got super pissed at mediacorp when ytd's fairly oddparents was repeated from last week, and Fated To Love You, they cut some scenes which were the nicest. GRR

Try to be patient... Im patient enough already ok Rashid? Patient for 2years. Waiting for an answer from God. Or is it im not worthy enough? I pray to God nowadays with no sincerity, cuz im on the verge of giving up.

In sec 3, my patience really reaches up to the maximum limit. BOILING POINT. Some people, decided to call me a girl. Im already pissed up being like a small kid, and a bigger insult comes straight to me in the face. U think i want it issit? Will u be happy if i call u something worse than that? HUH? U got a bigger and more serious disease than me and u choose to insult me? Maybe u dun think that u're insulting me, but STOP, ok?

I really have to be patient again. It's a really big test for me, and there is no such situation that God has given to you and u cant handle. I'll try to overcome it.
I think i always sign off with You'll Never Walk Alone, telling other people there is always god walking beside you, but i think this message is for ME.

~That's All Folks.~

~CHRISTON, YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.~

I NEED TO STUDY...

2009-09-24T17:47:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO STUDY...

NOW. Im dead. So many tests squeezed in next week, exams squeezed in 8 days...

I think this blog will not be dead. Decided not to bother too much on studying.

100 situps in 87 seconds? WOW seemed impossible to me. Hard work finally paid off. Packs can be seen.

School, boring. 2 periods of Physics on a boring chapter. English learned about Neandertals... quite cool, like learning history. Got some 2ndlife thingy in com lab at 2.30, and teacher briefed like 30min. When we are supposed to use the com, the teacher totally dao-ed the centre group and we have to see the other people play. AND 30MIN OF BRIEFING. STUPID WASTE OF TIME. Survey, all NO. 2ndlife SUX.

Did some skipping when i came home. Bored. On com to watch some soccer highlights, some facebook crap, then decided blogging. Wanna time-travel to 16october. Or stop time to play, then stop time another 1 sec later to study. So in 2 sec, i can play and study all i want. so cool.

My China trip on 13-27 Nov??!?! 26th November my bday... Didnt want to go from the start. Dunno why go China sia. Still remember i had a great bday last year with my relatives, although not with my family. This year not with my family again, and is with China buddies?!?!?!?! Boring...

Signing off as a dead person.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

MIRACLE STARTS NOW!

2009-09-23T17:25:00.002+08:00

MIRACLE STARTS NOW!

THURS- CHEM!!!
NEXT TUES- MALAY(EOY) AND E GEOG!!!
NEXT WED- BIO AND A MATHS!!!
NEXT THURS- E MATHS!!!
NEXT NEXT WED-NEXT NEXT NEXT FRI- EOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUDY LIAO!!! SCARED ALR!!!

Ok blog more then start -.- School, BORING. Aiya i everyday say same thing la. Then ate lunch with Rashid, Geng Hao and Liting. Talked about alot of weird stuff. I think the talk about studies pulled us together -.- We talked about chem, and everyone was inside the conver LOL. Nerd clique.
Finally Rashid can eat with us, and i can feel the same routine happening just like last month, before Ramadan.
Tml Chem test! dunno whether im fully prepared for it. gonna study more today. wanna do well. Dunno whether chem EOY can do as good as MYE onot. Highest in level so cool! Gonna mug like crazy. EE seeing myself studying so gross -.-

I think i will not be blogging till 16th october. LOL. and i hope i wun blog. I dun wan to get distracted by computer and games. Oh ya, but tv how? I hope avatar will end soon. Oh man, dunno wad else to blog. But gonna be my last post for 20+ days.

STUDY! CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG! Feel so inspired. Er, bye. Bye?

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR TESTS AND EOY, EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

~That's All Folks. (for 20+days... sob) :( You'll Never, Ever Walk Alone.~

We Will Shine, Shine Like Stars Above...

2009-09-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

We Will Shine, Shine Like Stars Above...

Just read finish Destiny Cries by Low Kay Hwa. Read 2 of his books alr, and no happy endings so far. I doubt there will be any happy endings in all his books rite? (correct me if im wrong -.-) The storyline is just so lame and fake... theres this girl who can go to other realities randomly, and she has to kill herself? LOL. Then the guy did blood transfusion and he died instead. Their love between each other was rather dry. LOL i dun think im professional enough to criticise on people's books -.-

School was so boring. Bio, Excretion fun but complicating. Chem and Phy go thru answers. E and A Maths chionged for Trigo identities. English have to write discussion essay -.- Malay. Not even paying attention. The teacher was write some compo examples on the board to let us copy and we dun even understand anything. Spent 1hr reading Destiny Cries there -.- The teacher last day teacher us :( sob. Good bye and Thank you Mr Bakri! :D And throughout the Malay lesson, Yiren keep touching me and also forced me to touch him. GROSS SHIT. His renal artery go to his brain liao, then got all the dirty stuff -.-

Came home, missed Fairly Oddparents, watched Avatar. Blood bending o.0
That's all for the boring day.

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

WOOHOO?

2009-09-21T15:27:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO?

Did very little studying today... but at least finish metals for the chem test. I think today is a very good day for me to chiong, but half of the day gone alr :(

My muscle pull not yet fully recovered... Still feel cant stretch my leg properly. Anyway now it is exam period, so it's still ok.

Internet got some prob... cant go msn and firefox at the same time -.-

People say that growing muscles will stop ur growth spurt? WTH... Pls lor, i no muscles at all, if i dun grow muscles then i become giraffe already... I think that's how Peter Crouch became so tall -.- Tall and bony.
I wanna be 1.7m(at least) by March 2010... Maybe 1.6m by end of year? Depends on my growth spurt. Hope my growth spurt is 25cm -.- Dun like being a late bloomer.

trying the MISSION IMPLAUSIBLE: be 1.8m by end of 2010 :):)

All soccer results not what i wanted... so sian. But who cares about other teams? Liverpool must aim to get 90 pts in the season!

ZZ ok bye... Btw, abit lag but, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri(!!!) to the Muslims. XD

~That's All Folks. You'll Never Walk Alone.~

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2009-09-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Man Utd 4 Man City 3 ???!!!!!???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!!!!!!?!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!?!??????!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!!!?!??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the HECK???!?!?!?!?!?!?! o.O"'... '." ... -._.- ... >:( GRRR

Nvm... Who cares? :D :):O